I have a plan for my near future...
And it involves at least 3 months away from Singapore...
I intend to apply for a Holiday Work Pass and go to New Zealand...
This is to widen my circle of experiences and also, because... I just REALLY wanna go to New Zealand..
I don't mind doing factory work or being a waitress... I just want to get out of Singapore and experience a life on my own somewhere else.. Wilson says it's better if I have a friend to go with me.. But I dunno.. Somehow, I think maybe I should try doing it alone... Maybe I'll ask Logen if he wants to join me... But other than that... I think no one else in my life will be willing to do it with me... Or maybe Wilson wouldn't mind... :)
Well, Im bent on doing what I mentioned above. So, I've been looking up on the "immigration" procedures and the requirements. Seems like I fit the bill and all I have to do is apply and get all teh documentations ready. Buy the tickets.. And have enough money in my bank.. AND!! Im good to go! Hopefully .... Cos They still have to approve my application before I can go.. Cos they only approve 200 pple each year... Im hoping next year will be my lucky streak... So, please please please please PLEASE!!!!
So that's the plan.. .Hopefully the impending recession doesnt rule out this plan. Cos my Dad was telling me that if the recession happens.. All this plan have to be shredded into pieces and I'd prolly have to stick with my current job... :( Which I would definitely not be happy about.. ButI'll survive... Sometimes situation does not permit you to be the person you want to be.. That's life... But HOPEFULLY! This time, life won't be such a bitch to me.. And finally let me step out of the conventional life.. Just for 3-12 months... That's all I ask of you...
So, I've been thinking... If this plan works out.. Who'd I miss and who'd miss me?
My family definitely, top of the list...
My close friends that I hang out with almost every other week....
Other friends whom I still occasionally hang out and talk to...
Colleagues that are now considered my friends cos I spend almost everyday with them...
People who claim they like/love me...
That's it... 5 categories... I was lazy to name names.. and some names are sworn to secrecy...
My brother is really encouraging that I do this with a friend... But I dunno.. Not easy to find a friedn that would do something lidat with you...
Ok, apart from that... I will talk to my friend about his journey on this Holiday Work Pass thing.. See what he says... And do more research on this... Propose a beautiful proposal to my parents about this adventure that I wanna take.. Convince them that I'll be safe and it's really what I want... Im quite sure they won't disapprove.. Cos I run it through them briefly last night and they didnt seem too disapproving.. They just said it might be a bad idea if the recession hits.. and they didnt ask much after that.. maybe cos they think I'm not serious about it...
But when everything is more or less settled.. And they think that Im serious about it.. Maybe their reaction will change. I dunno.. I trust my family to trust me... So anyways, speaking about that.. It means that, I have to save up tons and tons of money... LIKE TONS!
So starting today, I will not binge drink... I will not CHIJMES around like Danny...
I will not spend much on food... CHeap hawker food and simple food is fine... Maybe once in a month pamper mysefl with good food... Not fine dining style but at least a nice steak or something..
Although I do not shop much, but once in awhile I do the occasional binge shopping.. So that has to stop too.. Buy what I need not what I want... For the rest of the things, cut down cut down cut down!!! Everything needs money nowadays.. So If I cut down my ciggarettes, I'd prolly save a whole lot too.. I'm at the stage where it's difficult to quit now.. Cut down? Sure can.. Quit? Maybe not...
So, The alcohol and the cigarettes are the main things I need to cut down/quit... Othe rthan that I would say I have been living frugally... OH YAH!!! I missed out one thing... Other than my impending trip to Hatyai... My Other impending trip to Phuket.. And my long planned trip to Gold Coast... I shall not plan any other holidays.. From now til Next year June.... I shall not plan any other holidays.. And save up for my long term New Zealand Holiday...
If this doesnt work how? IF I don't get selected how?? I WILL FUCKING APPLY FOR THIS SHIT EVERY FUCKING YEAR TIL IM THIRTY!!! OR MARRIED WITH CHILDREN!!! Cos that's the criteria.. Cant be above 30.. Cant have kids..
So, that;s my dream.. When I was young, my dream vacation was New Zealand.. Cos I think I remember seeing the most beautiful scenic picture of a place. And I asked my mum/dad where that was.. And they said New Zealand.. And KAPOW! My new favourite place.. And I remember everytime anyone asks me where I wanna go for holiday.. New Zealand was my first answer.. But I never got to go...
Now that there's a possibility I can go for a loooong time... Without having to spend as much money as I thought would be needed... I will die for this shit!!! And I've never been very motivated to do stuff til the end.. I was always dropping out halfway or just smoking through all the things in my life.. But this? This I need to do it.. To prove to myself mostly.. That there IS something to live for.. And that is to live for the happy moments in life.. Where you finally get to do what you want, the way you want it...
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Those who loves me and still reads this blog.. Please, hope for me... I havent been happy lately.. havent been excited over something in a long time... And I havent been motivated to do something about my happiness for a long time.. So PLEASE! It will make me very very happy.. If all of you support me in this and help me hope that I get this.. IF I get this... I'll be happy for the longest time in 3 years..... :)
