Everything's going haywire...
Or at least it feels like it is..
My world revolves around thai disco and alcohol nowadays..
Spending money like it's easy to earn..
Everything's wrong, no matter how right people keep telling me it is...
It feels wrong.. Something is missing...
Feels like once again, there's nothing to live for...
I dun wanna whine.. I dun wanna rant...
Cos it's pointless... I either give up, or I bite the bullet and move on...
There's no 3rd option...
I hate myself... Ever feel like the biggest enemy to yourself is yourself?
Im my baddest ass judge for myself..
Everything i do is wrong to myself..
And I cant help it... Neither can anyone else...
And recently, it feels like no one really cares enough to help me out of this dump im in.
Either I'm not shouting for help loud enough, or they just pretend not to hear me.
Cos im a mess... And why would anyone wanna be in this mess with me?
I need help... I need the kinda help that helps you out of dumps like this...
I have no hope, no faith and no nothing in anything...
If there's a god... You would do everyone a favour...
And just take me away from the surface of this earth...
Where ever else... Doesnt matter...
I wanna fall asleep tonight and never wake up...
Screwing every fucking little thing up...
Nothing i do is ever good enough for myself...
Fuck laa...
