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Monday, May 31, 2004

Damn!! Now stacy and sookie noes my password.. Its soooo dumb!!! Why am i always so blur??? ARGHHHH!!!! I truly hate myself for not even capable of keeping my password safe from others view.. Crappy idiotic freaking pooty neh neh!!!!! Haiz.. But i guess i just have to trust them dun i? Hope they wun betray me.. HAha..

Am reading Harry potter & the prisoner opf azkaban for the 4th time now and im just moving on to the fourth book.. I swear man.. Harry potter book is da best book.. Its like im in a whole total world of muh own.. Feeling all the excitements during and before harry's quidditch matches.. Feeling the adventurous and happy and sad and blah blah blah moments.. Its just a great book!!! I tell you im gonna read the whole series again during the holidays... Its a book ill never get tired of reading.. And since the movie is coming out soon.. Why not refresh my memory of the story rite?? Haha.. I really wanna noe how sirius black look like.. And professor lupin.. Haha.. Ok.. To "non-harry-potter-books-readers", im very sorry if you dun understand a word im saying.. But pls understand cos im so very much in love with the book and movie rite now i can not slep for the whole of tonight...

Anyways, im eating maggie noodles now cos the food muh grandma cooked wasn't to muh liking.. Ok.. :| i noe i shouldn't be picky and all but i just didn't felt like eating rice.. So i cooked maggie instead.. Asam laksa.. Yummy yummy.. Soury and spicy taste.. So nice!!! ;) Can't wait for the harry potter movie.. But im not sure if ill be watching on thursday... Cos sookie can't make it on thurs.. But i really can't wait that long.. Im already half dead waiting for it to come out... Struggling with the urge to go to united states to watch it first... Haiz... But on the contrary, i really wanna watch it with sookie cos then, it's be her second movie watched with us in a theatre.. Hehheh..

Also, im quitting band.. Finally got the courage to tell them.. Going to school on friday to clear things up with the instructor face2face.. Hope everything turns out fine.. I dun wanna be rude or insult anything or anybody.. But if they really force me, i dunno what ill do.. I may even cry.. But i noe ill hate myself if i did.. Hehe.. So i shall put up a brave fight and CHIONG AH!!!!!!

OK DUNNO WHATS WRONG WITH MY COMPUTER CANT TYPE PROPERLY EVERYTHING IS IN ITS SHIFT POSITION CANT PUT ANY FULLSTOP COS IT WILL TURN OUT LIKE >>>>>>>> HAHA GOING OFF NOW THEN BYE BYE MUACKX TO ALL I LOVE AND TO ALL WHO LOVES ME!!! :)

Sook han is here next to me so is stacy.. Sook han is currently pretending that she is not next to me.. We are all at stacy's house.. Guess what? Im pretty pissed off now cos i did loads of things to help stacy create a blog and it all went down the drain cos everything didn't work!!!! Damn!!!! Haa.. But im gonna help her do another one nextime.. When i get more knowledge from clarissa bout creating blogs... We arall so bored now in stacy's house.. Especially sookie.. She haven't talked since two hours ago.. Hope she will start talking soon cos its ird having her around but not hearing her voice.. Like she's planning an ambush attack on me or something lidat.. SCARY!!!! Haha.. Talking loads of crap now and im sure sook han is gonna kill me soon cos she is reading this now.. Haha..

Heh heh. Stacy's house is superb cos there's lots of junk food to eat!!! Especially chocolates and sweets!!! Yum yum!!! Haha.. Finally, like once in a lifetime, im feeling hyper.. alamak!!! Sookie is still not talking.. After all my attempts to make her kill or harm me.. She still isn't talking.. Hmmmm... What to do?!?!?!!?!??! Sookie Talk right now!! Do anything.. Just dun kill me cos i can't bear the tot of leav you!!! HAha.. Crap.. Dunno wat the shit hell im talking bout..

Nvm.. Too-pi-doopy-doo!!!!

Going to hunt for food in stac's house now... Heheh..
Friday, May 28, 2004

Alamak!!! Just found out this song just plays once only.. So im gonna change it to another song.. Sorry...

Ok.. New song up.. The starting sucks.. But wait.. After that i think its nice.. Hope you kuniwawas like it!!!! ;)

Hey all my ku-ni-wawa-s!!! Wassup with ur lifes today.. Mine was hell... Took back report bk anyways.. Did ok lah.. Didn't fail any subjects.. HAd interclass games today in sch.. Pretty fun & cool too... I played captain ball.. Played three games in total and my team lost all the games.. Haha.. But it was fun.. Quite disappointing though... But its ok.. cos' for badminton.. We thrshed almost all the teams.. Our players were really cool.. Knockin down every opponent.. Heh heh.. Every one did great lah huh? ;) Soccer lost i think.. Or was it a draw? i think lost.. Cos you noe why??? All the gd players all 'fly' to play badminton liao.. So our soccer team got no striker.. Hmmm... But its ok.. Had a fun & tiring day..

Went to played badminton in south cc after sch.. And went on to east cc after that.. Loads of crap happened... Conflicts and argues again.. Like i said.. My temper ar.. Like shit.. Must comtrol.. But hard lah rite? If there are some idiots that wanna spoil ur fun.. Haha.. Pigs!!! quarelled with Cindy as well bcos of one pig.. Whom i call as the pig king.. Haha.. Haiz... Who cares lah.. Very pissed off now.. Wanted to call one of muh fren to tell him bout it but he's busy.. So i guess ill just tell anyone who's reading my blog? :)

Need some GOOD company now but nobody is free right now.. Some eating lunch.. Some got their own stuff to do.. Some i dun feel like calling.. Some i noe wun even care.. Some wanna noe but will talk loads of crap.. And some that will totally cry for me.. But why would i wanna call anybody now??? SOOOOO LAME!!!!

Everything in muh family is going fine.. Everything in muh family is so good that i dunno how come thing happening outside my house is sooooo crappy... Haiz.. Ok!!! I shall stay hyper.. I shall not grow moody.. SMILE!!!!! Heh heh.. Smiling now..

Bored to death right now.. My leg and hands are so totally aching like shit... Oh manx... Very the painful sia.. Back oso aching.. Why i so weak ar??? I must exercise more sia.. Play more badminton basketball and stuff.. Best is play rugby.. Haha..

Missing muh friends already.... Kiez.. Going to bathe now after one hell of a sweaty day... byes to all muh ku-ni-wawa-s!!! -muacks-
Thursday, May 27, 2004

Ok... Saw this lyric of a song from someone's website.. It's kinda cool.. So... Here goes:

The Math

You're always trying to figure out what I am all about
If you don't know what the answer is
Then just shut up and kiss
It shouldn't take forever to put it all together


If you can't do the math then get out of the equation
I am calling you back
This is * 69
Is it a minus or a plus?
Does enough equal enough?
If you can't do the math then nothing adds up
Tell me why I'm here!

Sure I want someone to understand but I don't need the stress
I'm not about being analyzed like it's some kind of test
Don't have to be a genius to figure what's between us


You can spend your whole life analyzing, justifying, quantifying, and dividing
'Til there's nothing anymore
Why don't you just close your eyes and kiss my lips and let it go
Just let it flow
It's what I'm waiting for
Don't have to be a genius to figure what's between us






Cool right?!?!? I hate maths by the way.. So it kinda shoot about me too.. Haha..

Kiex!!1 Toodle-lee-doodles peeps!!!

Last day of term two tmr.. Haiz.. Will probably miss some peeps but hanging out some time during holidays with some of them.. So hopefully we REALLY do it.. Dun last minute change.. I dunno if ill be going to work.. Cos i dunno where?!?!? And im so broke now.. How?!?! Skipped band today again anyways... I dun wanna bother..If they ask me for letter or wateva fucking band fund.. Guess what?!?! Im gonna **** them upside down manx.. Chicken sia...!!! Feeling like shit now as usual.. I haven't been feeling hyper these two days lai.. Why ar? But in school today was a lil hyper lah.. Watched bend it like beckham.. It was damn funny.. Nice too.. Cos' the main actor was damn handsome.. So cool... The lead actress was kinda pretty too.. Very sweet and touching story.. Hilarious like shit.. After that the rest of the school watched spiderman.. But my class went home... Im gonna watch it later i think since i got the vcd... ;)

Ok.. Joyce is like.. WHOA!!!! She wrote a book manx.. SERIOUS!!! It was quite thick but she wasn't happy with it.. I tell you, she's one ambitious gurl manx.. One day she's gonna make it big.. Joyce Chua Xiu Wen.. Shall be on the newsflash someday.. Greatest author of the century or something... Had public speaking course today..Only i wasn't really listening cos'/ i was listening to Nur talk bout her bf and stuff... It was pretty cool.. Made me a lil' jealous that she had such a sweet bf.. Chill gurl!! Keep it going on...

Ok.. Out now.. TIP-PI-DooLes!!!

WeeeeeeeHoooo!!! Im starting to love the song im using more and more.. ~let it be let it be let it let be~ ;)It's so nice!!! I come everyday to blog and to surf the net and to listen to this song..Man!! I think this song will be staying for...quite aye-while... Heh heh.. Haiz... Tmr having band.. Dreading it like hell... :( What to do.? Stupid school.. Put me in band.. Wa lau.. I now feeling very emotional sia.. Somemore the song making me more wanna cry...CHOI!!! I dun wanna cry NOMORE!!! Im not gonna cry... Er..Why am i feeling so emotional for?!?!?! Er... erm.. ay...hmmm... I DUNNO?!?!?!?!?!

School is as usual going to be such a bore tmr.. What else can i do except sit around, sleep, crap around, play chess, talk and do wateva shit there is for me to do? If only life was more interesting... IF ONLY...

Ok.. i think something's happened btwn my bro and clar..What is it? No idea.. But hope it isn't anything big... Dun wanna lose a friend dun wanna lose that smile my bro have ever since he knew her.. Cool off pple.. Dun do anything stupid that will make you regret next time...

Ok.. Im 'officially' crying right now... Why?!?!?!?! Why do i always have to cry?!?!?! Control!!! Mandy!!! Control!!!! Damn i hate those tears... Sometimes i really hope to dig out those eyes that always wet my bolsters when they start to 'rain'... But who would have the courage to do that? If i had the courage to do that.. I wouldn't be here now typing all these crap... Haiz.. Wateva.. *roll eyes*

If one is one two is two then what is three? If five plus one equals six then how come one plus five isn't six?

Ok.. Those two questions are NOT iq questions..So please DO NOT try to solve them.. I just felt like typing them.. It also shows how many questions like that i have in my heart.. Questions that NO MATTER WHAT cannot be solved.. Haiz... Questions like that are not supposed to fall on me.. Cos to everyone, i seem like the cheerful all smile weird gurl... Guess what?!?!? You're half right half wrong.. Babes!!! You gotta know me.. And when i say that, i mean it!!! Dun pretend you guys know me cos YOU DON'T!!!!! The one that makes you all laugh doesn't mean she herself is suppose to laugh... I CAN"T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!

Im so tired.. Tired of everything.. Tired of all the shit-y crap in my life.. Tired of pple around me.. Tired of having nth to do except typr crap here.. Tired of veing me... Why do i always say that? Cos' i mean it.. And please let it get through to your mind that that is exactly why sometimes you see me crying for no particular reason.. DEAR 'FRIENDS'... Don't look at me like im some alien cos we all are... You have ur problems, i have mine.. You have your regrets, i have mine.. Don't see me as if im some low-life or some perfect gurl.. Cos im not.. Im just like any of you reading this.. Ok.. Now im talking like i noe u all, but i dun.. Get what i mean?!?! I noe you dun cos' i myself dun..

Ok..Finally the tears stopped flowing out from my already dried eyes.. Crap... I hate this feeling.. I lost muh first friend on my bdae.. Then my next a few months ago..Then my third a few weeks ago... One by one all is leaving.. Then for all i noe, ill be some loner shit.. If i have the chance to turn back time, all would be different now.. All would not have ended up like this.. But what's done is done... If im gonna be some fucking loner soon why not now?!?!? Why drag?!?!? The longer you give me time to spent time with them the more pain i will feel when it's their turn to leave.. Just take them away once and for all.. Then leave me here all alone to await for my death day.. Let nobody come to my funeral cos they dun even noe im dead.. Or maybe they just dun care.. I wun even HAVE a funeral...!?!?!?

Haiz.. Tired out..
Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Boring day today..Having band tmr but i can skip for the first 1 and a half hour cos i got this public speaking course to attend.. Wooohooo... Damn!Why dun i have the courage to just quit band???Just tell the pple straight in the face that i hate band?WHY?WHY?WHY? Haiz..I dun want pple to hate me cos if i quit band..There's a possibility that my seniors or the pple in band would "not like me"..But i dun think they like me now anyways..Cos' i've been skipping band VERY often.. HAha.. But who cares??!?!?! I HATE BAND!!!!

Me yeni and nur kinda ok already.. Chilling out now.. Feeling soooo0o sleepy..Guess ill be off to bed after checking my friendster account after this..Haha.. OK! Bye fer now!
Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Ok! Added a song to my bloggie..I noe it doesn't fit well but i love this song..It's an oldie but its nice!!! Haha..Cool..Maybe ill change evryday or 2-3 times a weeks..I mean the song..Have loads of songs for me to choose..Hehe.. Nice anot?comments?

My mom birthday was yesterday.. Kor, clar & me shared to buy her an ice-cream cake..The ice cream cake was yummy yummy.. Before we had the cake..We went to toa payoh's Sakura to have dinner..It was superb!!!! The food range was great and the taste was heavenly!!! Quite expensive though.. Ok..And in school yeaterday..I made up a song for my mom.. I sang it to her after she blew out the candles of the cake..Everyone says the song is not bad.. So i sung it to her.. I almost cried halfway through singing the song.. Ok..The lyrics goes like :


Im lying awake
nth to do
feeling so blue
just thinking of you
i dunno how to
tell you i love you
but mom you gotta noe.

You mean alot to me
so have more faith in me
and you brought me here where i am
so dearest mom just smile

In school today
i thought of you
trying to make up
something for you
i dunno how to
tell you i love you
so maybe this
would let you know

You mean alot to me
so have more faith in me
and you brought me here where i am
so dearest mom just smile... Just smile...



I named it Just Smile..clar helped to change the lyrics and tune a lil.. Even muh brother said it was ok..Haha.. I should go compose songs huh? Haha.. Had a great day yesterday..

But today was BORING!!!!Bad day today..Had a 'quarrel' with Yeni & Nur today.. Hate it! And oso had 'cold war' with some1 too..Quarrelled with that person two days ago but still not resolved..Haiz.. Hate life THAT MUCH!!! I really wish time could turn back to the day of muh bdae.. I would have not done those bad things i have done.. It hurt pple and it caused loads of uneccessary pains and wars... Feel like crying now..Just cry all muh problems out.. Haiz.. Just another emotional period of muh day.. Will get over it soon.. Those pple that noe me well will noe.. HAha..

Bryan have a friendster account now.. Clar, my brother and, i used my anthologys account to make one for him...Cute huh..Heh heh.. ;)I love my baby Bryan sooooo0o much!!!

Ok!Gd day to ever-ri-bhady...!!!!

*Crying my eyes out*
Sunday, May 23, 2004

Just read through my last post and realise i type wrongly..I said im gonna work hard fer muh mid years but what i wanted to say is ill work hard for my end of year exams..Haha..

Today is Logen's bdae!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LOGEN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!


Hope you had a great day today!!! Im sorry i couldn't spend it with you bro..Sorry..I noe you wun blame me rite??? ;)Anyways, i bpught him a present on muh own..Actually supposed to share wif the others but all never plan what to buy so i just bought on my own..Its kinda cheap cos im kinda broke now after losing muh 50 bucks...SORRY AGAIN!!! But its the tots that counts rite?I promise ill give you a treat sometime later when i have the money to okay?And once more! HAPPY BIIRTHDAY!!!

Alamak!! I have loads of thing to say bout yesterday but too lazy to type..I shall tell you guys someother time! Okay!Happy bdae to Logen my dear brother & anyone else having their bdae today!

-Adios seniorita-
Friday, May 21, 2004

I THINK I HAVE BRAIN TUMOR!!! haha.. Had a terrible headache for yesterday and today... Maybe im at the last stage of the cancerous thingy?!?!? Haha... All muh frenz try to talk me out of the obsession wif the suspicion of my brain having problems..Haha..Pretty funny..My headaches get worse when im agitated so im trying to be happy every moment..Some of muh frenz ask me go see a doc to prove it.. So farnie..But i really suspect i got brain tumor..How? Also i dun wanna waste money go for all the brain scanning thingy just for a suspicion..HAha..

Haiz..I lost 50 bucks today..It suddenly disappeared from my yellow box where i kepp all my money..I lost it!!!Its either someone stole it..Or a ghost ate it up..Or maybe when i was sleep walking,i ate it up?? Haha..No wonder my stomach become such a brat...Hehe.. Nonsense!

Anyways, got back muh english paper today..67.5..Didn't do as gd as i expected but..its ok lah.. Got 56 fer science.. Haha..All muh subject all border line cases..Sure go last class wan lah..But ill definitely work hard fer mid years!!!Haha..At least ill try lah huh...;)

-Gone for now-

Ok..Going to watch van helsing next week...Still cannot believed i passed maths and history..Haha.. American idol over just an hour ago..Jasmine's out.. Haha.. Guess who'll win? Hmmm..Im supporting Fantasia..She got STLYE manx..

Ok.. Gonna sleep now.. So tired..Dunnoe why recently keep sleeping so early.. Maybe i growing old already..Haha.. Need more sleep.. Or is it hibernation period again??? Haha.. Dun even noe what that means.. Oh ya!! i dun have pictures to put up.. But i think i will soon...So pls be alil more patient.. Nitex pple!
Thursday, May 20, 2004

Hey.. guess What?!?!?!? I passed my maths!!!!! I got 54.. Ok.. I noe its very low but at least i still passed!!! Soooo surprised!!!!!!!!!!!! But Logen and Gladys kinda failed so im pretty sad too.. I tot they will do better than me.. Oh ya.. Harris failed too.. Very sad.. I teared when i found out muh frenz failed.. Cos i felt bad.. They looked so sad.. So later im accompanying Gladys to watch a movie.. Hopefully it'll make her feel better.. Cos she fail her history too.. She cried two times.. So sad.. :(Gonna watch van helsing.. Maybe aryani going also..

Ok.. Kinda happy i passed my maths.. But sad cos muh frenz didn't and cos i failed my history.. Wait.. Did i fail??? Oh!!! NO!!! I didn't fail!!!!! I passed!!! Oh yeah!!!!Haha.. Damn... Haha.. I was quite hyper today.. I dunno wat to say manx.. It's really surprising that i can actually pass my maths... Oh man!!! Woooohoooo... Shit... Why am i acting so happy? MUH FRIENDS FAILED!!! Damn!!! GOD!!! Please give them more marks.. Or the least you can do is let them stay happy.. Haiz..

Damn.. Clar and TwoETwo wrote testimonials for me in friendster... But the prob is i did not recieve it.. I saw it in my mail but when i go to friendster to check..They say dun have.. stupid friendster.. So laggy.. arghhh!!! Nvm.. Hope van helsing is a nice show.. But they say if i watch van helsing after troy it wun be nice.. Cos troy is DA BEST!!!! Haha...

ok.. Going to change now.. Byex!

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

Sucks! Have nth to do still...Chatted wif Sookie awhile just now on msn but she had to sign off cos' her bills are getting too high.. I feel so bored but dun wanna go sleep... Freako!!!! Just ate cornflakes for lunch.. Haha.. Ok.. I know its unhealthy but i dun have anymore maggie!!!! Ok.. I know maggie is unhealthy oso.. But what else to eat??? Haha.. Feel very hyper now but dunnoe where to apply my hyperness too.. Need to buy a diary but dunno where to go to get a nice and cheap one.. Maybe malaysia??? Haha...

Talking bout malaysia.. Going to tioman during the june holidays.. For 3-4 days i think.. Heh heh.. Gonna snorkle and maybe even learn diving.. So cool!!! But if learn diving very expensive.. So maybe i wun.. See dfirst lah hor? Hope it'll be fun!!! Mom,Dad,Bryan,Wilson,Clarissa& i going together.. Hehe.. SOOOO cool!!!

What to talk about now???? Erm.. I wanna download the movie Stand By Me.. But my imesh can't seem to work.. Idiotic!!!I think i stop here lah.. Nth better to write anyway..

BuhByez!!!

Today was.... quite ok :| Slept in mdm chia's lesson today...Miracle she didn't notice.. I shall sleep everyday in her class from today onwards.. Very tired today.. Suppose to have gone to turf city wif logen to buy a diary but he was tired and that stupid art teacher ask him to stay back to touch up on his art stuff...So in the end, like usual, we cancelled our plans...So bored at home.. I kinda miss exam days cos i can leave school early.. But it was really stressing me out.. So i am oso kinda relieved that it has all ended..Now what is troubling me is that im afraid ill do badly for my exams. And that i have nth to do currently... So why is it that pple's lfe can be so exciting at times but mine is so boring???? I wanna do something out of the box.. But not things that will harm myself or others... I wanna go out late at nights, catch midnight shows, go clubbing, drink alcohol.. Like what my brother can do.. But i wun and can't.. Firstly, bcos my mom and dad will never allow me to do so..Secondly, Im harming myself by drinking alcohol and may get into trouble if i go clubbing.. Thirdly, i dun have the courage to go out late at night cos im not familiar with all the transport stuff ard Singapore.. You can't blame me... I was NEVER able to learn.. Al i noe is bus 31 goes to east coast and bus 232 and 238 goes ard toa payoh.. And that i can take mrt to orchard buona vista city hall and bishan.. What else do i noe??? Haiz.. I just dun have the chance to be like my brother.. I dun have friends that can go out at anytime when you're bored and need company... Sometimes i think that my brothers batch and my batch the pple very different.. His batch is more fun and out-going and stuff... Mine??? Hahaha...*laughing my head off* The sec 3,4,5 have so much fun during their time.. Now the pple r getting boringER and boringER each day.. I wonder if everyone will become zombies as times goes by... I wanna have fun!!!!! What the fuck is my problem??? I always complain bout my life being so miserable.. But they are actually pple out there feeling more miserable than i am.. So pple out there!!!! Stay happy!!Don't do anything stupid...It's not worth it!!! Haha..

Anyway, today when i was sleeping in class, i dreamt that i commited sicide.. That i finally got the courage to do so.. And when i woke up.. I tot i was dead.. But luckily eliseus came and assured me that i wasn't dead by talking to me.. Haha.. Pretty freaky.. Cos' it felt really real... Hope its not dejavu... Choi!!!! Haha.. BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn i need some company.. I need some fun!!!! Arghhhh!!!! How much more boring can life get???
Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Chinese paper failed.But if add the other tests together should be pass.Totally devastated.Dunno how to tell mom.So gonna die.Hate this feeling.Had a quarrel with a friend today.Felt more down after that.Acted as if i was ok.Smiled and laughed.Joked around.Heart was crying.Dunno why i talking lidat.Just posted many bulletins in frienster.Had nothing better to do.Parents home now.Told my mom the news.surprise she didn't scold me.She just gave me the "SEE WHAT I TOLD YOU?!?!" look.Hate myself for doing so badly in exam.I would have felt better if my mom scolded me.But she didn't.Why am i feeling like i will go mad any moment???Listening to some stupid song now.Lazy to change song.keep on typing til i go tired.wanna watch SUN WUKONG later.Feel like eating but dun wanna stop typing.Ok.. I really think im going crazy. Hands can't stop!!!!Help!! Oh man!! Something is happening to me!!! Arghhh.....

No la.. Just kidding.. Gotta go now.. Im ok peeps!!! Dun you go worrying bout me!!!;)

Monday, May 17, 2004

Ok.. I was reading through all my saved files when i come across this.. I remembered i saved it when my internet suddenly jammed.. And i oso remember that it was a Sunday when i wrote this entry.. I think i forgot to put it up after i ate.. Haha.. So here it is :




Hey pals!!! Erm.. I decided to blog since i have nothing better to do except to sleep... So here i am!!! Blogging without anything to write in mind.... Hmmm.... My life has just 'capsized' again.. :| Surprise surprise!!!! Isn't it so boring to find out that whenever you think your life is starting to turn for the better, it suddenly took a U-turn and got back to square one?? Im soooo cocked-up now... I seriously have no idea how to work the steering wheel to make a turn back to where i was heading before... 'Cos i dunno where's my destination...

Anyways, there's this group of idiots who called me today... I dunno who they are & i dunno how they know me... They just called and asked me to meet them up and if possible be 'more-than-friends'... What rubbish!! They say i know one of them there... 16 years old and they've got nth else better to do than to start 'phone harrassing' me... Idiots!!! I lied to them saying i was going to meet my boyfriend so i could brush 'em off my back.. But then they said i could meet them up with my bf.. So i said " i don't think my bf would like it"... Im really curious of who these pple are... 'Cos if i find out??? *evil laughter* They are sooooo DEAD!!!! I know 1 guy there name is Terrence.. I forgot the other... Damn i really wanna call them back and give them a thrashing.. But what for? A total waste of my time!!!! Haha.. Seriously, if any of those idiot is reading this?? WHO THE HELL ARE YOU??? If you wanna ask me to meet up with you guys.. Tell me your real identity and be true!!! And once more, STOP BEING IDIOTS!!!

Hmmm... I think i made Harris angry... Dunno why i seem to care but yet dun seem to wanna care... Understand???? I really dunno what is happening... And its starting to piss me off... Nobody or nothing can REALLY piss me off... Except maybe LIFE.... Why can't my life be carefree??? Why does life have to have so many questions?? Damn.. My parents are rushing me to go have dinner now.. MANDY OUT!!!!

*Listening to The reason by Hoobastank*




I think the first paragraph was true(at that time)..Haiz.. But i don't think i care anymore.. It's funny how i keep saying i wun/dun care anymore but in actual fact.. I do!!! I just can't go blind out of a sudden right?? Why is life so cruel??? Never mind.. That dun sound like me at all... OK!!! I shall stay happy as always!!!! Ok!! Gonna watch kill bill 2 now!!! Toodle-dools!!!


*Forever just me*




Home ec exam wasn't that bad.. I didn't really study for it and i think i did better than how i did for my freaking maths.. See!!! Studying doesn't help.. I rather not study than study but still fail.. My mom put me in trial maths tuition for me to try out.. Haiz.. Think its ok lah... Hope tuition helps lor.. Anyway, Quite boring today.. After school i immediately come home.. Gladys ask me go watch Van Helsing with her and Charmaine they all... Don't feel like watching movie today... So didn't go.. But im going to play pool later anyways.. With clarissa.. I dunnno if anyone else is going.. Hmmm.. She is sleeping now so i think i have to wait very long for her to wake up and for her to come over to my house... Ill be so bored for the moment.. Haiz.. Hope she wake up faster.. I actually wanted to go up to her house just now.. But i scared her father at home or something.. So didn't go.. And i dun think she wanted any disturbance.. Haha.. :)

Making Totino's Pizza right now.. That's my lunch peeps! Haha.. Very long never eat liao.. Clar cook barley yesterday.. I didn't drink it cos i didn't dare to.. Haha.. But they say its too thick.. Still got half a bottle in da fridge.. But i think somehow it wun be flowing down anybody's body.. Haha... Oh!! My pizza is ready!!!

*munch munch* YUMMY!
Friday, May 14, 2004

Guess What peeps?!?!?

I watched Troy already.. It was so freaking nice!!!! It's the best movie i ever seen! Better than The Matrix,LOTR, and Harry Potter... Its soooooo Nice & cool!!! Im so gonna download it soon or buy the dvd/vcd when it comes out.. Its seriously a MUST watch!!! So Nice!!!! Im very in love with it right now... Watched it with Clarissa, my brother & Xiang zhong... Damn!!! I wanna watch it again!!!! But guess what? im gonna watch Van Helsing soon i think.. But not really interested now cos' after i watched Troy.. I don't think any other movie will interest me more than it did.. Haha.. Abit exaggerating lah.. But still... It damn F*cking nice!!!!! It kinda changed my attitude towards Brad Pitt.. Always tot he was an ugly and lousy actor... But now, guess he's just "alllllllright"... ;)Haha...

I was actually supposed to go play pool after watching the movie... But bcos of some problem.. I didn't go in the end.. Quite a disappointment but its ok tho.. Still have lots of chances to play pool.. Its very fun.. You pple shud go try it out sometime if you haven't... Even if you dunno how to play.. It'll still be very fun IF you go with the right pple...

Hmmm... Maths paper 2 was a total freak out session for me... I practically lost bout half the maks for the whole paper... Forgot some formula stuff maybe bcos i was too nervous.. Maths is the only subject that can ever make me freak out.. I was never nervous in all the other papers but maths???? Well.. I freaked out.. And i totally broke down after Ms James collected the paper... I cried.. My friends all tried to console me.. "THANKS YA'ALL!" Why did i cry??? Ok.. I thought.. "I didn't study so hard just to flunk my fucking exam.. I started revising since bout 2 months ago!! And i still did so badly..:(".. So i cried... It was the downfall of my confidence level... I don't think i will work as hard for the finals.. Cos' i worked hard this time and guess where it got me??? I swear to god after the exam i seriously had the urge to tear my maths textbook apart.. I was THAT depressed!!!!

Nvm..:( Im over it already lah... I don't get upset for a very long time over this kinda thing wan.. I just cry it out then all is ok already... Sook han was part of why i got over it that quickly oso... She accompanied me to go play SWING SWING although she felt tired cos' she wanted to make me feel better... We spent time talking bout stuff and i felt much better after having a few gd laughs wif her...Sook Han!!!!! "Thank you soooo very much!!! You're the best Sookie anyone can get!!!"

Ok.. Gonaa watch the 9.00pm show now.. Oh no! it started already!!! Bye peeps!! Stay happy!!!
Thursday, May 13, 2004

So..... Maths exam was a DISASTER.. And its only paper 1..Having paper 2 tmr.. It was a major screw up.. I didn't exactly completed ALL the qns.. But i managed to put in some working.. I wun be surprise if i fail.. In fact, ill be surprise if i pass! Terrible Terrible day! Was very depressed after exam cos' couldn't help but worry for the next paper tmr... As usual.. Logen, Gladys, sookie & i stayed in the school library to study today... We, again, had a pretty gd time laughing at logen and my jokes.. Sookie was very pissed off as she wanted us to concentrate on studying.. She was very motherly like.. I almost mistook her for my mother!?!?!?!? Hahah.. Had a great time!

Haiz.. My tagboard have bcome another place for dissers to come and diss me off already.. They even diss clar and logen and some other pple.. I seriously have no idea why though.. But sometimes i retaliate back bcos' i can't take it.. Ok.. I admit.. I can't take it.. Happy? Haiz.. But you shud see clar's blog.. So much worst than mine.. Lucky now she take away tag board so it save her frm more criticism.. So sadistic sia this pple.. Haiz.. Nvm..

Anyway, im gonna sleep now after doing some stuff.. You see, i ate this cough medicine a had in my fridge which causes drowsiness.. So im feeling a bit sleepy now.. But ill chat awhile more in msn before i leave lah huh.. ;)
Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Hippie potamus!!!!!

Today was quite fun..Geog exam wasn't as difficult as i expected.. After school..Logen, gladys, sookie & i went to turf city to study..We studied maths as the next two days will be maths exam... I REALLY studied!! Can you believe it?!?!? I can't myself.. But i feel proud that i can actually study without getting distracted..Erm... Not quite though.. Had a few gd laughs.. Cos me and logen kept making jokes out of the simplest thing and gladys, the laughing machine will burst out laughing like scooby doo..And sookie will start laughing too... Then even US!! the jokers will start laughing too... Gladys was really weird cos when she talked on the phone, she kept hitting me.. Plus logen kept teasing her.. And when she scold logen.. Her hand automatically hits me.. WEIRD!!! Her hands just can't keep to itself huh.. :| Haha... Before we went to turf city... We stayed at school library to study... Mr sin came up to teach us, leaving all his marking behind.. Proves that he is really concern for us... I dunno why i treat him so bad everytime in lesson... Haiz... Mr sin had a few laughs wif us too... And he finally realise i wasn't listening in his class... Haha... He was preety funny.. He made us laugh wif his blurness...He really looks like a primary school kid though.. Facial expression and all.. And somemore the bag he carries is like.. Seriously very primary school.. It's either frm those travelling agency or got cartoon wan.. So fuuny.. I always tease him wan... But he very concern for me.. Keep saying he worry that i will fail my exam.. Haiz!!!! Have more faith in me can?????? Haha...

Anyway, never see miss huang ard lately.. She say she will come back this week but im not so sure when though.. But she left me her email in my spon. bk... So i guess ill just email her.. Hope she will reply soon... Shall tell her about my blog so she can read.. Hmmm... What else......????? Oh!!! I vomitted last night.. In the middle of the night.. I was coughing like shit then i coughed out all the phlegm and crap.. Haha.. Somemore got scolding from my brother cos he say i got cough still drink cold water,thats why will vomit(so unsympathetic) :(.. But this stupid cough ar.. Like bat lidat.. Only at night then more active wan.. Especailly in the middle of the nite... I vomit two time liao leh.. But the doctor never gimma cough medicine.. I was like WTF??? But didn't bother waiting for another turn to ask him why.. So i just took the medicine he prescribed and headed home..

Ok!! I wanna wish everyone gd luck in ur exams!!! To the slower pple, cos you need it(jus jokin).. To the clever pple, cos i hope if i wish u gd luck, i will get a little of ur knowledge.. ;)STILL... LUCKS!!!!
Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Today was a screwed up day.. Everything went wrong in school & at home! What a tiring day... Firstly, i couldn't totally finsh my stupid history test..Then after the freaking test, i was very pissed off... Then that stupid idiotic mdm chia have to come into the classroom and nag n nag.. Making me more fustrated.. So, me and logen kinda played truant.. We sneaked out of the classroom when she wasn't looking and ran all the way until we think it was save to start walking again... MAN! it was adventuruos.. But a lil' embarassing as well cos' many pple saw us running... And i didn't noe logen can run that fast?!?!? haha..

I went to my grandma house to visit my baby brother after school.. He was damn happy to see me cos he seldom get to see me in the morning cos' of school and stuff... i then realise that i have to accompany my grand mother to the hospital for check up cos' my dad said he was busy and couldn't fetch her to the hospital.. I did as told & we spent 3 hours in the hospital!!! It was like... HELL!!!! Damn!! But it wasn't that bad lah.. Cos i got to talk a lil' with my grandma... I have never really looked at her before like when i look at her in the mrt just now... She had headaches in the mrt but denied when i ask her if she was alright.. But i can see it from her expression... She tried to give me money alot of times.. But in the end she persisted i take 10 dollars.. So i took it out of respect.. Seriously, i didn't want her money cos' i still have loads of money in my 'personal bank'... But she ask me to take the money as tips for accompanying her to the hospital... She's really nice.. Now when i think back of the times when she looked after me and i was naughty and all... I really hate myself... So now when im in a bad mood.. I won't go to my grandma house unless its necessary.. Cos' i dun wanna lose my temper and scold her or anything... Tell you what.. My grandma is a person that dunno how to cherish someone until something happens...

In the past, she didn't treat me that gd cos i was with her everyday.. Now that im all grown up and cannot afford the time to spent everyday wif her.. She treats me really well when i visit her twice or thrice a week... Thats what happened to my elder bro too.. He was treated better after he grew up and didn't spent much time with her... Now, she treats everyone better cos' she had cancer.. But its all over now.. She went for an operation and stuff and all is over now..(what a relief!)She's really cute too.. Cos' she is a lil' like my mom.. When you ask them something.. They will find you an answer no matter they noe it or not or if the ans is right or wrong..And when someone correct them, they will just try to argue back but nth comes out.. So you noe that they weren't sure of their ans.. Get wat i mean? Can you imagine that?

But i still think my grandma have always loved me, my brother and my family very much.. I guess she, like me, just doesn't noe how to express her inner feelings out..But she's one cool grandma afterall.. WAIT! i think cool isn't quite the word for her.. But CUTE is!!! :) haha..

Damn!!! i seriously hate exams!!! I have geog exam tmr and guess what????? I haven't even study anything yet.. And the worst thing is... I never listen in ms James(geog teacher) class oso.. What am i gonna do? How??? HOW???? Im soooo having a headache now.... Damn!!! I need panadols!!! Oh ya!!! The doc gave me panadols that day... I think ill take that then.. Should feel better after that... ;)

*off to take my medicine*
*no music :(*

Today was a screwed up day.. Everything went wrong in school & at home! What a tiring day... Firstly, i couldn't totally finsh my stupid history test..Then after the freaking test, i was very pissed off... Then that stupid idiotic mdm chia have to come into the classroom and nag n nag.. Making me more fustrated.. So, me and logen kinda played truant.. We sneaked out of the classroom when she wasn't looking and ran all the way until we think it was save to start walking again... MAN! it was adventuruos.. But a lil' embarassing as well cos' many pple saw us running... And i didn't noe logen can run that fast?!?!? haha..

I went to my grandma house to visit my baby brother after school.. He was damn happy to see me cos he seldom get to see me in the morning cos' of school and stuff... i then realise that i have to accompany my grand mother to the hospital for check up cos' my dad said he was busy and couldn't fetch her to the hospital.. I did as told & we spent 3 hours in the hospital!!! It was like... HELL!!!! Damn!! But it wasn't that bad lah.. Cos i got to talk a lil' with my grandma... I have never really looked at her before like when i look at her in the mrt just now... She had headaches in the mrt but denied when i ask her if she was alright.. But i can see it from her expression... She tried to give me money alot of times.. But in the end she persisted i take 10 dollars.. So i took it out of respect.. Seriously, i didn't want her money cos' i still have loads of money in my 'personal bank'... But she ask me to take the money as tips for accompanying her to the hospital... She's really nice.. Now when i think back of the times when she looked after me and i was naughty and all... I really hate myself... So now when im in a bad mood.. I won't go to my grandma house unless its necessary.. Cos' i dun wanna lose my temper and scold her or anything... Tell you what.. My grandma is a person that dunno how to cherish someone until something happens...

In the past, she didn't treat me that gd cos i was with her everyday.. Now that im all grown up and cannot afford the time to spent everyday wif her.. She treats me really well when i visit her twice or thrice a week... Thats what happened to my elder bro too.. He was treated better after he grew up and didn't spent much time with her... Now, she treats everyone better cos' she had cancer.. But its all over now.. She went for an operation and stuff and all is over now..(what a relief!)She's really cute too.. Cos' she is a lil' like my mom.. When you ask them something.. They will find you an answer no matter they noe it or not or if the ans is right or wrong..And when someone correct them, they will just try to argue back but nth comes out.. So you noe that they weren't sure of their ans.. Get wat i mean? Can you imagine that?

But i still think my grandma have always loved me, my brother and my family very much.. I guess she, like me, just doesn't noe how to express her inner feelings out..But she's one cool grandma afterall.. WAIT! i think cool isn't quite the word for her.. But CUTE is!!! :) haha..

Damn!!! i seriously hate exams!!! I have geog exam tmr and guess what????? I haven't even study anything yet.. And the worst thing is... I never listen in ms James(geog teacher) class oso.. What am i gonna do? How??? HOW???? Im soooo having a headache now.... Damn!!! I need panadols!!! Oh ya!!! The doc gave me panadols that day... I think ill take that then.. Should feel better after that... ;)

*off to take my medicine*
*no music :(*
Saturday, May 08, 2004

Heyax!!

Gonna have steamnoat later tonight!!! an early celebration of mother's day.. We are gonna drink wine!! So cool!!! Guess what? I wanna watch Van helsing! Who wanna watch with me?!?!?!?! Everyone says its nice and stuff but i wanna check it out myself yar?

Anyway, i won't be blogging much these days cos' of the exam thingy.. I hate exams!!! i think ill fail my science that is on monday... Science ain't exactly my subject.. Chinese paper yesterday was ok.. But alot of the 'hanyupinyin' i didn't know.. Most of them that i didn't learn came out.. I hate chinese!!!! But i just realise recently that my chinese teacher really care for us.. Not like our form teacher that only care if there is any rubbish on the floor anot...

ok!! Gonna sleep now.. So tired.. Wil study later i guess.. Heehee*
Thursday, May 06, 2004

Today i had English exam.. Was kinda easy for paper 2 but paper one??? Erm.. That im not so sure.. But hopefully, i will pass... Had a talk with a teacher in school just now.. Spilled out all my 'hardships' to her.. She was pretty cool.. She really cares for me yar? And very understanding too.. I hope i dun do anything stupid in future to make her angry.. OOPS!! i just realise there may be no more next time.. She is a trainee teacher.. Her last day with us is tomorrow!!!! Damn!!! Why have all the good teacher have to go away one by one??? First ms tay.. Next mr ho.. Then now her!!! ARGHHHHH!!! But its ok la.. Life goes on.. But i think ill remember wateva she said to me.. Cool teacher.. Very interesting way of teaching too..

I gotta go cook maggie for my VERY-DEMANDING stomach.. So im going now!! Bye!!!

-PEACE-
Wednesday, May 05, 2004

I didn't go to school today.. Had a terrible terrilble diarrhoea.. I hate it.. Luckily, it didn't last for too long.. But my stomach still feels alittle upset... I dun wanna see a doctor cos' she may just suggest sticking a small transparent thingy up my a**... So i will try very hard to please my stupid stomach.. I dun wanna stay in the toiket for too long cos' i will then SMELL like the toilet... Guess what? tomorrow is an exam day and im skipping school today.. EXAMS are jinx!!!!

Anyway, i have nothing to do at home so i toss my room around to look for the PRINCESS DIARIES books.. I decided to re read those that i can find.. But i only found TAKE TWO & GIVE ME FIVE...I think my mom borrowed it to someone... i hope she/he returns it soon... Seriously, it's a very nice book.. I love it since i read the first sentence of the first book... Actually, that was just an exaggeration... But i really love the book.. The two books i love most is PRINCESS DIARIES & HARRY POTTER...

Ok.. Guess that's all i have to say... Wish me luck for exams!!! You guys study hard too!!! Do some last minute revision yarh??? Lucks!!!! ;)
Monday, May 03, 2004

Hello peeps!!! Wassup ya'all?!?!?

Im currently at Logen's house now studying..But i couldn't look at the book for too long or ill have a headache.. So here i am blogging... Mira (Logen's cute lil' sis)is really screaming now... She is very cute.. But can break your ear drums if she wants to.. She gets very excited when i visit her and she will keep saying that im in 'her' house... I seriously hate Logen very much cos' he keeps making Mira scream to irritate me... I tell you Mira can really scream man...

Guess what... A few of my friends betrayed me today.. But do i care??? NO!!!Haha.. It isn't any of a big deal anyway... They just told the person i like that i like him.. That's all... I don't give a damn anyway... The person will just be awkward towards me... And worst of all... Everyone denied that they betrayed me... And one of them even threw his temper at me cos' he lost a friend bcos of my 'secret'... I was like "what the hell???"... But nvm.. :)

Britney's everytime is a really cool song... Its really sweet and sad at the same time... I cried the first time i heard it... Real cool huh... I wonder how would i be if i was a star... Why isn't anyone reacting to my bloggie nowadays? Is it getting boring? Maybe someday if i got the time, i'll find a new blogskin yarh?

Ok.. Nth else to say.. I shall sign off here... Good bye peeps!!!! Luck with the mid-year!!!