Wooot! Tmr's half day... Hmmm, firstly i wanna say sorry to my darlingest MOUFIE.. I really never meant to make you feel this way... Im sorry... Dun be sad ok? I miss you.. i really do...

Well, today, spent most of the darn bloody day helping out the interhouse games as a scorer.... Was pretty pissed bcos all of them slacked after sometime.... But all's fine now.... Tmr's beatty hula-la record breaking day... Wonder if its gonna be successful... I have a feeling something will happen... Whenever something big happens in beatty.. Bad things are bound to happen on that fateful day...

Tmr is also shopping day with my V.Gsss.. I really hope ALL my v.gsss will be able to go.. Haven't spent time with all of them together for quite awhile already... Especially Anarchy and Moufie.... Wish you guys will join me and yeni tmr... :)

As for what anoy says, i have no comments... Oh wait.. I DO have.. I never did say this blog was full of wonderful crap that may enlighten your miserable shitty life... Im sorry that you have a bad impression on me but eh, this is again, my fucking blog!!! So if i wanna put rubbish inside or fill it up with incidents that happen in my pathetic life, its kinda up to me.. So peace dude.. Dun go find trouble when its not needed lah.. You got problem with me, wait.. If you got REAL problem with me(like i killed your parents or sent arson on your bloody house), dun hide behind your beautiful computer screen and type words that doesn't even comprehend.. :) May you find your inner peace and get rid of that bloody cowardice you have.. :)

Oh yeah... I forgot to say about this super duper cool skirt i saw in Robinsons.... Its sooo damn friggin nice.. Its $33.90.. You guys think its worth buying? Its really really cool... Its brown... Wool material... A little checkered... Like those scottish skirts you noe? But its abit above knee length.. so?? Advice pls!! My mom says i should wait til the price goes down but i think when that happens the skirts either gonna be taken or not in good condition... :( How?? I really like it.. I've been thinking about it for the past 2 days...

Oh.. Another thing i've been thinking about is korean movies!! Wooo! Korean guys are so super hott!!! Woot!! I borrowed THE COOL GUY from yeni and i watched it bloody TWO times in already.. So cool... Haiyoh... Korean ah korean why so hott??? Alamak.. I wanna learn korean ah.. Haha.. Yeni says she's happy there's someone finally who can share her undying love for korean stuff... Ok.. Leave the undying love part out.. I was being exaggerating... Haha.. Thanks yeni... Truly.. Thanks.... :)

Okays! Bye!

Well, im in the school comp lab now.. Suppose to do HFC stuff but im done.. The rest are still at it so i decided to come here for awhile... Really bored... Realise that im really bored and there's nothing else to say...

So, What else? School was boring today.. Cant wait for holidays to start... Truly... I think school is a monster transforming into something scarier now.. I dunno wat to do, wat to think or wat to say... Im just.. Just bored... Gonna stay back today and tmr for interhouse games.. And on wednesday im probably going shopping with yeni... Shit! Gtg.. Bye!

Its official!!! I got the job!! Wooohooo!!! My first ever job in my entire life!! Im so darn happy.. There wasn't really an interview but thx to stacy teddy i got the job.... Yupps.. Seems like they are really in need of workers.. Cos firstly all the uni students alr start their studies so there's nobody that is free except maybe secondary school students... Aiyah.. They will surely be able to find pple wan lah... i love it.. The pay is good, job is chalenging.. Only thing is that we gotta and talk for about 10 hours.. Quite long but think of the results.. Woot!! Im very driven now.. I MUST do his job well.. A good start is always good.... Lol....

Im really in love with the song BAD DAY.. Its super nice.. Its like really emotional but inspiring song somehow.. Dunno.. I feel much beter after singing it out loud.. Seems like these days i've been pretty cooped up somehow... Everything's slowly changing again..... changes happen like everytime i gotten use to it... ITs like someone's playing a trick on me... Or perhaps im in a drama serial that drags on and on and on with mishaps and little moments of miracles... Haha.. Im too imaginative.. If my whole life turn out to be a movie? I guess ill kill the bloody director.... And the scriptwriter.. And probably everyone involve... Lol.... Like "the truman show"...

Im so sorry my V.Gsssss.. Super duper sorry for not being able to spend this two days with ya guys... Really sorry... I hope you guys are not angry or sad at me cos i really love ya guys lots... Well now, we can have fun!!! Monday.. I promise ok??? :)

I think ill use my one week holiday to organise all me school stuff properly lah.. Im too lazy this few days... Haiz.. Got tens of thousands to pack sia... Somemore all my worksheet all everywhere.. My cupboard.. My table.... The computer room shelf... Maybe under my table got somemore.... Oh.. I have to pack my bloddy cupboard too.. WHAT A CHORE!!! My worksheets are so much more easier than my clothes.. Trust me.. You wun wanna be packing my cupboard bcos its a junk place.. Really... I just throw all my clean stuff inside and then watever reaches my hands when i put in, i wear.. And my "outing clothes" cupboard??? Good lord!! You should see the stuff inside.. Everything's in.. Bedsheets... pillow cases.. Yah.. That due to the lack of space in my house to put tens of millions of bed accesories... Bleah~

I suddenly miss a particular guy.. And Some friends... Daammit... I think i miss that guy bcos.... bcos... er, i dunno??? I just miss him... wa lau... Bored... Think i go play yahoo games to get rid of my boredom.. Bye!!! And..... TAG PLS!!!

Life's as usual.. Boring but still relatively alright... I finally passed my a maths test once more.. Im so gonna stop failing maths.. Im gonna put extra effort in maths.. Im also doing fairly well in physics.. At least better than in chemistry.. I fucking SUCK at chenmistry... So physics, emaths, amaths... That i will put in extra efforts.. Geog? I guess ill study a little bit harder... Social studies?? If my teacher is mrs goh i got so much higher a chance to pass it.. Blah la.. Now its that bloody moley bitch... So damn assified...

Ok.. So im going for an interview tmr at burlington square.. Im sooo nervous and excited... I wish i wun screw the interview up and i sooo hope they ac cept me.. Cos i dunno if they accept under grads... i hoep they do, since stacy is working too.. But difference is the guy knows stacy father... Ah.. Who cares.. 100 over bucks is super humoungously cool!!!! Duh~~

Im really into the song Bad day by daniel powter and Oh chariot by gavin degraw... Super duper cool song... I like em.. On the contrary, i STILL dun fancy my class.. Ain't workin'.... I try hard to really like my fellow mates but its proving to be nothing but crap... everytime i was almost close to accepting, something happens to turn it all around... Thus, ending up in me hating my class.. Its like, i dun feel like its a place where i can find all my soulmates in or friends that i can continue frenship even after i grad...

I feel like eating cherries now.. Or plums perhaps.. Haha.. My mom gave up on buying plums already.. Everytime she just buy come back only, 10 minutes later you see no more already.. Haha... Im crazy for plums and cherries.. That time my father brought cherries back from hongkong i think, and the next day it was all gone.. Trust me, hong kong's cherries are de best amonst best of the best of every freaking cherries in the world!!! Its nice... Hongkong... Hmmm, disneyland.... Woot!! My whole life, at least i wentr to disneyland once... Im lucky.... And i went to the america's one.. Which was super cool.. But we paid so damn much... Just to play a few games and get signatures from the disney people.. Cos we cant take ALL the rides due the the never ending queues in ALL of the rides... But i remembered ONe particular signature, BELLE'S sighnature.. Bcos at that time i tot she was the most beautiful lady in the whole damn world... Seriously, she was wearing a bright shiny yellow gown... And she had brunette hair... With a near perfect smile.... Damn.. She's just a normal person, just that when i was age 7-8 i tot she was an angel.... Lol.. Drama!

Okays.. Tats all folks!! Stay tuned for more.......... (dun touch that remote!!!) Lol...

Sry.. Havcen used the comp for a few days due to my obssession with the korean drama serial "Stairway to heaven"... Its such a nice show.. Luckily for me i have a auntie who is a korean drama fan.. If not i gotta wait til every monday and tuesday to watch it.. Im now almost done with the 20 episodes.. 3 more discs and 3 more hours before th drama ends... And its getting very sad and touching.... Oooh.... And the jang soo guy has near perfect abs and chest.. My gawd you should see his body in one episode.. Woot!!! Its to die for... No wonder two girls are head over heels for him.. Moreover he's rich.. A woman's dream.. Wooohooo....

Ok.. So i was planning to actually do some organisation to all my notes and worksheets today but after i went home.. I watched one disc of the show and then i went to sleep.. I was feeling soooo damn tired.. Today, i even slept thru out the whole 2 periods of chinese lesson and got a lashing from the teacher.. Worse is, my class got a scolding bcos of me and i feel sooo damn bad... Sry guys.. Was really sleepy.. But wells, i went to apologise to the teacher after lesson and i LIED!!! Can you believe it? I told her cos i got problems then i slept late last night.. Ahahah... And she assumed it was family business... Haiz.. I feel sad for her....

Hmmm... My dad's gonna go to hsanghai the next few days... For working business... Gotta go school myself.. What a bore... Moreover tmr wednesday!!! WHY?!?! WHY!!?!?! Why he ALWAYS gotta go before wednesday??? Huh? Thursday cannot isit!??!?!?! Blah lah.. Ass... Hate it when i gotta take the bus to school... I feel like punching myself in the face whenever i dun feel like waking up.. Somemore i've been dreading school recently bcos of dunno what also... I think its cos i seriously do not like my class and some of the people buzzing around me like there's no tomorrow.... Fuck... I dread school more than ever these days... I wish i'll just get secondary school over and done with and start my next phase of life afresh.. New start.. And then somehow screw it up bigg time and it goes back to the same fucking cycle.. Dammit...

Im soooo not on the right track now.. Im CLUELESS!!! Im practically stupid!! I dunno anything about science.. My maths isn't uber great.. My english is average.. My chinese is hopeless... I'm too lazy to even THINK about Dnt and i suck and both social studies and geography.. So im literally on the bad side of the world.. Meaning ill be dead even before O levels come.. This is soo freaking fucked up.... Why cant i just be a rich kid with a GOLD spoon in my mouth soince birth and have a prince as my future husband and totally skip studies bcos if i become a princess, i so totally do not need sooo darn much knowledge.... Even if i DO need 'em, ill totally be home schooled and the teacher should be afraid that whenever i feel anger in my stupid body i can totally skip school bcos of the sole reason that im the PRINCESS!!!!! Blah lah.. Imaginative sia.... Sia lah... Still.. i wish i was....

Ok.. So life's being a bitch... School suck.. And i gotta go.. Bye..

Today's TAF games was a disaster... Its was a disaster since the start... Since that bloody teacher showed up.. She's such a dumbhoe that seriously i was ooo damn close to just ponteng-ing the whole damn thing... Didn't win any prize.. Found out we sucked at netball big time.. One reason is bcos it was SUPPOSED to be captain's ball then when we reached there it was netball.... We were relative good at floorball but we were shorthanded at one point bcos floorball and netball clashed.. Have to say faizal was skilled in floorball.. :) There's this pierce guy that cheated during the game and there were many conflicts... Especially Desmond.. Who was super unhappy.. And somemore my mood was duper bad cos of that bloody teacher.. So i kinda attidude a little... Moreover we were losing netball so i was pretty blue.. We were practically creamed ok!! Whipped creamed....

But my team was good.. They tried to cheer me up.. At first i wanted to back out and just walk out before the game even started bcos i seriously cant take the teacher... But they convinced me not to and i did it bcos of them.. I didn't even really want to win the games.. Maybe only after one hour i did cheer up a lil but after was pure down the drain... But i still loved the times we share.. Nive, Stacy, Aryani, Khrisha, and some others... Thank you so much for makig me feel good and useful.. You guys are the best!!! and beautiful in everyway that i can see... :) ilu....

I broke my toenail... Haha.. Oh yea.. did i mention this really hott sec 2 that was helping out as a referee.. He was cute.. But he is a player.. He practically flirts with every lil baby girl he sees.. Ain't normal flirting... Touching ok!!!! Lol... Too bad.. If not i would have interacted more with him.. Muahahah.... Hopefully today is useful and make me lose some weight.. If not its sooo not worth it... Only thing we gain is basically that pierce is good at sports but sometimes makes mistakes that everybody will make.... And that that bitch of a teacher is a stupiddumbhoe.... Hypocritical and act big... F you...

Health and fitness club has been ok.. But life's gonna be busy when the jap students come... I cant wait to get over and done with the whole shit... I heard there's this leadeship dinner for every cca and the two highest rank pple are suppose to go... Its tmr.. But im not going bcos i didn't hear the annoucement and i didn't go for the briefing today.. I dun even noe if my club which is sooo darn new must be there anot...... Im bored.. and still a lil low on the morale thing.. And a little pissed off..

did i mention i fail my bloody e maths test and chinese too... I gotto buck up big time or ill die bigger time... Im serious... Ill be dead like dead... Suckerrrrrrrr.. Study for what.. eeryone go sweep road clean toilet lah... bleah~

If ill be gone by tmr,
will you still be loving me...
If i wasn't me,
will you still cherish us....

Will i have the strength to carry on,
if i noe tmr ill be gone...
Will i get on with life,
ifi realise we wun last forever....

Is it enough to be strong on the outside,
But deep inside my hearts bleed profusely..
Is it strange to be weird,
someday ill know.....

Someday ill know where to find you,
someway or another...
Sometimes i drink wine,
sometimes i get drunk...

Accompany me thru the fire,
make me stronger than i can ever be...
Will you still be holding me if i fall,
someday, maybe, just maybe ill know.......... ;)

I wish everything back.. maybe... just maybe it will work out if i did somethings differently.. But maybe ill make things worse if i were to choose once more... Im losing my mind cos of you and you dun even noe it.. Im dying bcos of you and you actually think im alright and that im over you... You're seriously seriously clueless... I still love you boy.. I do soo soo much taht its hurting me that you do not know.. ilu.. soooo much...

Ok.. Ill go now and leave you guys in peace.. Hey.. Tag pls!! :)

Went to help out at the 2.4km napfa run today... Was pretty stressed out at one point cos i was sooo afraid i would screw up... See!!! Ii told you being in a high position isn't easy at all!!! I mean its like im afraid i would fail the task and get sacked just like in THE APPRENTICE... "mandy, you're fired.. go! get out!" WTFFFFFF??? HAhah.... Truly.. Never take up a job that you KNOw you cant achieve.. Take up something that you think you can achieve or you THINK you cant achieve but when you just KNOW it??? Dun even think about it.. Haha.. Actually no.. You should try every single shit there is out there for you.. Grab hold of chances or you'll be dead before you even know it....

I do hope nicholas did the attendance sheet for all of us cos i think we need to come up with a relay system.. Mrs how was pretty pissed today bcos some of the members left us in the lurch just when we needed them most.. We were out of helpers so we had to call a few runners that finished their run to help out.. Felt pretty sorry for them.. Gotta get thru the bloody 2.4 still gotto help us.. Sad cases.... But oh wells.... Oh yah.. And the whole marker thing.. It isn't easy if you're doing it alone.. You get so screwed up when one whole clump of runners run together and then they dun call out to you to tell you that they've finish yet another round.. Assholes... Really, i told a few of them several times to call out to me when they finish one round but they just refuse to obliged... I almost wanted to tear their heads off and then tear mine off too... Luckily i had saviour from ALL over the track to help out.. Thanks Mr chan and Hisyam... Thanks a whole heap... :) After that i managed to put everything back into order.. Oh! I forgot.. There were some very considerate runners too.. They know i was screwed up all ways andthey took the time to slow down and tell me their rounds and they also called me even when i needed to be called twice bcos of the damn chaos... Yah.. I particularly rmb the guy in the yellow tee shirt.. I rmb he lives ard my area.. In fact.. He lives right below me!!! AHahah... Maybe bcos he knew we were neighbours so he kinda took consideration of my plight and helped me by being a real good boy!! Ahha.. Thanks man....

So, there was really nothing that special bout today.. Just that i keep getting this tingly feeling inside of me.. In fact, im having that feeling right now.. Like butterflies in my stomach and my lungs stop pumping air.. Dammit!! Why why why???? Its like something totally unexpected is gonna happen or something.. Hahah.. Like how da hell would i know?? Lol.. Oh yah.. And i'll be meeting my dearest cousin, sherelene on Saturday.. Hopefully she rmbs to call me and confirm the date and time bcos if she doesn't.. I'll kill her the next time bcos i've been missing her lots and lots.... She's the only female cousin i have that spent time with me playing talking and even bathing together!! She's same age as me but younger.. Lol.. I love her loads.. :)

Oh.. I think i really rely on my friends to make me feel wanted.. Oh and my family too.. Really.. Sometimes when im all alone with really nobody that i can open my heart to, ill really feel like dying.. Like today perhaps.. Although Josephine and some other pple were there including my new friends from health and fitness club were there with me.. I still felt a tad bit empty and lifeless... And immediately after that i sms-ed my darlingest krush and moufie.... And then i walked home.. And i then chatted with my dearest Aisvarya on msn.. Life was soooo much better with them ard.. I love ya guys too!!

Im going to the stadium with aryani tmr after school for a run.. I dunno why but i suddenly feel rather energetic and wish to do some exercise... Thats good.. At least once in a while i do something that im proud of.... I amuse myself sometimes.. Hahah.... I intend to run at least 5 or 6 rounds... If i can then i continue if not maybe throw in some push ups and sit ups then ill head home or maybe hang ard tpc awhile... :) wish me luck!!!!!

Damn!! EXams are ard the corner.. I really need to buck up my science.. Especially that alienish subject called chemistry which i know nth of... F***... If i fail science i fail myself.. I fail my mom's trust in me ill fail practically everything and everyone that i live for.. Okok.. That was abit exaggerating but still...... Science is relatively important.... And DNT.. If i dun get my big ass to do that bloody project im as dead as the bloody fish Bryan caught that day that is still floating there in that stupid tank.... Yah.. Trust me.... I think im much more prepared at maths than anything else... Cos i've been putting more effort in maths than i ever have in my entire life plus yours add together... Lol... So not true.. I do slack sometimes...... Ok.. I slack alot of times.... Fine...

I suddenly think Bryan's kinda really neglected now.. I dunno why ok.. Maybe its not true.. Maybe its just thaat I neglected him several times.. Just like maybe how i've been neglected a few times... This kinda remind me of something that happened a few months ago but seems like just yesterday.. And thats not just a phrase ok... I LITERALLY feel like it was just yesterday that it happened.. And thinking of how i felt being neglected make me feel as guilty as i can ever be in my entire life plus my next life plus my next next life.... Truly.. It sucks to be neglected and i cant believe im somehow doing a crime that i wish nobody to do.... Me myself.. Neglecting someone i so truly love with my life, its just not right.. Not right at all and its hurting me but somehow... Im still that thick skin girl who still dunno how to express her feelings in front of her family...The last time i actually expressed something that was purely from my heart was when i had that truly amazing heart felt talk with my mom after that monstrous incident.... Yah.... I told her practically everything detailed thing that was kept within myself and well.. Since then everything went back to be like the past.. There's only a tad bit changng going on but i guess life is still good.. Its still counted as semi-perfect bcos i have everything i can ever wish for and that is to have a nice warm home and a totally beyond cool family to come home to everyday and super duper sumo Bryan to keep my life filled with wonder colours... I love them all to the core within core and i will never ever have a chg of heart bcos when it comes to family?? There's nth in the world that can chg the feeling you have for 'em.. Its sacred in a way and amazing in many ways... :)

OKAY!!! Philosophy time is over.. Now let me continue the crap previously... OR not!!!! I have no more crap to crap sp maybe ill stop the crap and grab a nap!!! Woot! rhymes.. Nites babes and dudes!! Rock on *do the stupid sign that everyone thinks is sooo cool* Woohoooo!!!

Oh boy oh boy!!! Hott hott hott!!! Johnny depp is sooooo damn hot i think he can totally melt the whole of the antartic... Weee-ooooh-weeet!!!! Niiiice..... Johny depp is totally my idol for the month... Hahah!!!! Johnny johnny im getting horny!!!! Lolol!!! Joking lah... I repsect him.. He's a good actor... Ok.. Maybe a good actor with a hott body... Okok!!! Fine.. A good actor with a hott body and perfect face.... Fine!!! I admit it... I think i got a tiny lil crush on a 40 over actor who is all the way in america whom i dun even think knows i exists.... Haha.... Woot!!! Im such a pathetic ass.... But i LIKE it.. Being a pathetic ass is fun.... Cos then nobody can say anything about me except that im a pathetic ass.... Hmmm? Cooooool......

So, watsup this days ya'all??? I've been spending quite alot on movies.. And CHARLIE AND THE CHOCO FACTORY is so damn nice its a mistake not going to watch it... Pls pls pls pls pls watch it... Its such a cute and nice show and moreover, johnny depp's in it..... Lol.... Johnny!!!!!! Depp!!!! Is!!!!! My!!!! Idol!!!! Woooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! And im really anticipating Herbie fully loaded to be out... Yah... Oh!! And yah! I wanna talk bout this Korean drama series that i watched last night...

Its Every monday and tuesday 11pm i think.. I cant rmb the title but it is so freaking nice.. Its like a cinderella story in korean... And it really provoked me so much bcos the starting was sooo sweet and then the bloddy stepmother gotta come and spoil it all... PLUS the step siblings are so mean to her i almost wished i was in the show so i could totally stab them half to death and let them have a taste of their own medicine.. Moreover, the step sister is so darn hypocritical and fake that i wanted to strangle someone right away bcos i couldn't take the way she treats the "cinderella".. Somemore the girl was sooooo damn sweet and pretty and the "prince" is so handsome and cute... And when the prince grow up??? The bloody prince is such a hott ass as well!!!! But unfortunately, i think the cinderella's gonna die... Saddening.. Totally a good drama series to catch.. My first ever korean drama series... Please make a note to catch it.. You wun regret it i guess... Its really nice.... :)

Hmmmm.... Yah.. Guesz thats abt all... Oh yah!! Cant wait for the next harry potter movie to comeout... Im gonna catch it for anything and im not gonna miss it even if the love of my life ask me out and refuses to watch it.... Even if johnny depp says "if you dun watch it ill be yours forever".... I MUST watch that bloody movie bcos its gonna be soooo bloody nice i know it!! I just do!!! Woot!!! Thx to fateha i cant stop typing woot!! Sounds nice eh?

Kays... Bye darls and tc!

And he even got a nice chest.. Oh he IS perfect!!!! And his tattoo!!! Coolness!!! He even looks good smokin!!! Ahhhh!!!! My ggawd he is sizzling!!! 

Can he look any hotter in this picture? The intensity of his eye is so strong i can die just by looking at the picture!! AHHHH!!! Woot* Make him mine pls!! Lol... 

Look at this hottay!! I mean who do you know can look so darn gooooood at 40? Dammit!!! He's hott! 

Well... Im meeting Ais later on at 1.30... We're going to Marina to bowl and watch CHARLIE and the choco factpry.. Gonna be so cool.... I've yet to watch the maid... Maybe i wun watch it since now the prices for tickets are so high.. I'll save it for Herbie fully loaded... I guess the maid will be shown on tv pretty soon cos its a asian show... Oh wells... We'll see......

Im now in a crisis.... I dunno what to wear... I've been trying on millions and thousands of slothings but just cant seem to find the right one... Arghhhh... Not my day.... Everything just doesn't seem right to me.... Ass.... Im half hour to the time and i've yet to find something to wear... F***...

I think my mom aint too happy bout me going out so frequuently.. I think she wants me to stay home and study.... Maybe i should... Yah... After today... Maybe i will....

I miss my V.Gs... Ha... One day and im missing them already.... THAT!!! According to Logen is ED.. Emotional dependency... Lol... I have an emotinal dependency on my V.Gs..... Oh.. Did i mention what a cool and nice show BILLY ELLIOT is??? My pe teacher showed it to us yesterday... But only half of it cos we had no time... But nevertheless, even the front half was sooooo nice.. I mean its pretty vulgar lah.. But who cares??? The boy Billy dancing ballet against all odds is pretty inspiring... Makes me wonder what my dream is???? To dance?? Er.. I guess not....

And that T3 pimple gel my brother bought is quite useful.. It seems SOME of my pimples have vanished.. But i HATE the smell of that bloody gel.... It stinks like crap on cowdung!!! Seriously!! Im not joking... But its so expensive... Its 9.60.. Crazy right??? But it works.. So im introducing it to my friends who are in the process of an attack from pimples.... Haha... Love ya KRUSH!!!

Oh ya! I've decided that i should just leave the rumours be.. The rumour abt me liking this guy and all.... Haha.. I tot abt it yesterday and it suddenly HIT me... ITS SOOOOO FUN WATCHING PPLE SPECULATE ON WHO I LIKE... And if they get it wrong... It adds on to the fun!!! I mean look! Everyone will think i like this guy... Then they will forget i like the OTHER guy... And all will be nice... Okay! Ill catch up laters.. Bye!

I think there's not much space left in my blog here to post bcos i typed longer the previous post but they couldn't post it.. so ill try posting another post.. Lol.... So.... Lets see.. Spend half the day with Ais and Logen.. Cleared some things up.. At least i did.. I dunno if they did... But i cherish it.. the time we spend together... Yupps....

saw this cute little boy while at the playground.. So super cute.. Seemed to find my hp so facinating that the held it and ran everywhere with it... Weird thing was i didn't felt heart pain that my hp was being manhandled by a child.. children a gifts from somewhere and i totally adore them... They're the most charming creature in the whole universe... love 'em....

Haven't been eating much recesses these days... used to eat reccess evryday but now its twice or thrice a week... Pretty cool... Save some money... Yeah... Bored at home nothing to do... I kinda feel better after posting the previous post about that stupid rumour thats going around.. SEE!! Talking about porblems DO help!!! Krush!! Trust me.. Im seldom wrong in these kinda thing... Like when i wasn't wrong when i said EXPLORER liked you!!! Hey! Thats how you achieved your once in a lifetime scandal ok!!! Ahaha.. Chill.... Gtg.. Bye!

Speculations speculations... It is such sadistic fun to know that some guys are speculating on whether i like this particular guy or not.... And just so you know? I dun.. I have no intention of liking him either... He is neither foe nor friend.. He is just a stranger i so happen to come across... Yes... A complete total stranger that i find not charming whatsoever in every tiny way...

I dunno how the rumour spread to such a horrifying "greatness".. But trust me.... Most of the speculations made are absolutely WRONG to da core.. Maybe it started when i have a friend who kept teasing abt him and me.. Thats why pple or maybe HE himself got the wrong impression.. Hey! No offence here but he's just not "there" y'know? Not muh cup of tea. Yea.. He's pretty okay(i HAVE to say "something" nice..)... yupps.

And i KNOW for a fact that he thinks i like him too... Yah.. It is incorrigible now that rumours are flying from all directions.. even close friends from pass class thinks i like him too... And it is really disturbing my thoughts.. How to concentrate when you know wrong information is being given out right at this very moment?? That others are having such fun thinking that "Oooo.. Mandy likes him? Really? I tot she liked the other guy?"

I mean is like.. I just go around saying something sooo not true on no firm ground... I mean, if they said something like "she still likes *ahem*", I wun really care bcos its kinda true... But problem is, they're saying something base on nothing!!! And can you believe what they're saying?!?!?! Stuff like i play with his hair.. Which is the worse of all lies bcos the most i ever do that has ANYTHING to do with his hair is tease him about him.. Saying he got such weird and abnormal hair.... I tease millions and thousands of guys about their hair before and i DUN see them speculating anything about me & them? For pete's sake, he is attached and since when has mandy gone for guys who are attached?? Since like NEVER!!!!! Ok.. Maybe in primary school i have.. Not now duh~ Getting into love triangles is like practically commiting suicide nowadays! Although i really wish i was dead but NOT to that extend of being killed by an unknown girl who loves a stranger. gtg..bye..

Haiz... Bryan's being such a freaking crybaby now i cant take it anymore!!!!! Fucking bloody fucked up shit!!!! Ii dun even have the mood to continue all my shoutouts.... Argghhhh!!! Fuck up lah! I continue the rest next time lah... I still have my mom, ais, logen, sookhan, and some other pple... Bleah~ Sry eh? Next times.. next times... gtg.. Bye!

Its a freaking holiday.. And im prepared to do my homework.. the problem is i cant find any.. Or at least cant rmb... Come to think of it.. maybe im TOO prepared.. The first thing i think of is "what hw is there to do".. Shitholes..

There's nth much to update... Well, i watched bewitched and its a pretty cool show.. Yah.. And i didn't even noe i watched the old bewitched before.. It showed on television... Haha... Yah... I was clueless.. The old show was also kinda cool... I watched it after some stupid rerun of the SUPERWOMAN(olden days show)....

Hmmmm, im really wanting to watch Charlie and the choco factory, Herbie fully loaded & The maid.... Yah.. This three movies are wat i want to watch most... Im currently thinking of WHERE the hell to go today.. Since i dun have any hw.. There's no use staying at home right??? But then again, there's nobody here to accompany me.. Yah.. Im so LONELY!! IM MISTER LONELY!! I HAVE NOBODY!! FOR MY OWN!!!! Thank you...

So, my parents are bringing Bryan to hongkong at the end of october... Yupps... Gonna be so cool... Bryan can sit airplane for the first time.. But i have a feeling he isn't gonna like it.. I hope he is safe and healthy when he gets back though.. Not like me when i came back from america.. Stupid sore throat left me there like a mute and i kept vomiting on the plane... Well, i was whining all the way home too... Until i got several scoildings from my dad... Yah.. Thats me being 7 years old.. Bleah~

I cant believe i said "there's nth much to update" And STILL type SOOOOO much of rubbish!!! I should go on the newspaper you know? Yah... Saying "blogger with nth to say ends up spouting rubbish" Or maybe "crap blogging is IN"... Haha... Yeah right.. I should even go to jail.. Better off.. Get HANGED!!! Hahahahah.....

What else have i gotta say?? Oh yeah.. Good luck Moufie for your POP!!!! And good luck to all that is involved... MIU(s) will forever be my idols!!! Haha... And Krush??? Dun forget i love you and i love you... So when the boat topples over and you're drowning.. I've got a sampan here for you to CLIMB ABOARD!!!! And if you decided that the sampan is too small for the two of us and topple OUR sampan?? Well, we'll find a way... :) -love love- And Anarchy!!! You and your boy is killing me!!! Tension building up.. Woooo.. Im glad the tension is relaxed and i believe you two will LAST FOREVER!!! Muahahahah.....

Shout outs!! I feel like doing shout outs!!! Yesh!! I SHALL do shoutouts... Thank you very much... Well, V.Gs is done.. So i shall start with my family...




Bryan : Exceptional.... You're the best thing that ever happened to me.... The absolute best!!! You may be very naughty at times and say "i dun protect you already la.. you so naughty.. i dun want you already" to ME!!! Your very own sister!! But there's one thing i know i will live for, to watch you grow up and BE A MAN!!!! I hope you will be a fit strong handsome very charming man who will NOT flirt around and hurt girls that truly love you... Haha.. Love you baby bro!



Wilson : You're such a piss off at times... But what's a older brother who cant irritate you for?? Sometimes i just CAN'T wait for you to get married and stay away!!! But well, who will i be fighting with??? Who can i use a pen to poke with??? Who can i injure most but still wun hold a grudge agaisnt me with??? Yupps, we can turn the bad times into good times bcos all the bad times taught us to endure both of our stupidity at times and our bloddy hell FUCKING irritatingness towards each other.... You're still the one and only older bro i will ever have and i salute you!! Deepest respect!




Dad : Without you?? Where will i be???? I mean literally, WHERE WILL I BE??? Haha... I'll always be your little girl... Yah.. No matter how rebelliuos i may be or what i say to you at times that we shout at each other.. Im still your little girl.. I know you work real hard to support this family and for that i respect and love and cherish you... There will be a time where i live my own life, but i know i still have you as a pillar to lean on in times of trouble... Be it financially, emotionally, or whatever.. I know you'll be there...



I cant type anymore now.. My brother wanna use the com.. So next time yah?? Ciao...

So! I cut my hair... really short!! Short!!! As in SHORT!!!! Yah... Im so dead.. Im also soooo wanting to rebond my hair now.. Bcos the hairdresser starightened my hair and it looked so super great.. Now its all curled up again and i look like.. I look like eeeeewwww!!! I wanna rebond!! I just gotta find that stupid 150 dollars voucher for that salon thing that my dad got.. It's lost!!! Can you believe it? 150 bucks just lidat GONE!!! No way!! Im desperate!! I need rebonding for my hair or ill go out with a bag over my head!!

Okay... Enough on my stupid fashion mistake... Ok.. Its not a mistake.. Its nice.. But i need to make my hairt sit straight and stay in place!!!! Blah! Ok.. The insurance guy's here talking to my parents and all... Hmm.. come to think of it.. He's been "the-insurance-guy" for us ever since.. ever since i can remember!! Wow!! Long term relationship with us... Muahahaha....

Lets say hello to all my loverly friends out there who thginks i should really keep off from coffee for the moment... HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! How da hell are you guys doing??? National day is coming!!!! And im dying!!!! I dunno why???? Yah!!! I can't stop shouting!! Yes!!! No!!! Wait!!! What???? Ok.... Im bored.. Ok? I admit it!! Im bored!! And nth i can do is ever gonna stop the fact that i WILL remain bored for the rest of my life until i decided to do something... Like perhaps study??? Yea right...

Im really starting to like my com... Its pretty cool.. Can play CS on it too!!! Yah.. Like ill ever get any better playing it... *sings "let it be"* Oh let it be let be-e let it be let it be! Speaking words of wisdom let it be........................... Yes! I shall let it be.. Huh? Let what be what?? What the monkali pusing am i talking about?? Pangkat!!! Bleah! Shitholes chicken neh neh!!! Im spouting crap and rubbish.... Yes.. I hope you guys just relax and keep on reading... I shall give you ONe good reason why you should... Bcos!!!!!! Of the sole main reson!!!!!! That I, mandy Low........ is da only person in the world that can actually say something when her mind goes absolutely *poof* blank..... Yeah.... I am.. I TRULY am..... believe me.... Nobody else i know can actually talk half-sense-half-rubbish when their mind is absolutely filled with nada! Yah.. No kiddin....

You should bear with me for awhile... Cos then ill teach you the invinsible technic of blogging w/o a clear mind at state.... Yes... I like that.. clear mind at state.. You should in fact!!! From now on!!! You should come here everyday just to see how i crap and to see how many paragraphs of crap i can produce and i shall continue typing until i really got no words to write and therefore, come up with the longest crappiest sentence anyone can write and bcos i know i can do it i will do it and nobody can stop me so dun even try as you will never succeed or maybe im doing this just to make you irritated or will you even read this shit bcos if i were you i would totally stop reading and close this bloody stupid window and call mandy to tell her "you stupid b****, what the hell you trying to do spoil your stupid keyboard??"

Yah... Ho my holy mother baby of the mother's crap!!!!! I wrote an entire sentence filled with about 115 words of absolute crap!!!!! Yes!! I break my own record!! Im the most the unbelievable nothing-better-to-do girl..... Yah... Shoot me!!! Or better... SUE ME!!!! Bleah~ Peevealogy.... Understand what that means??? I guess not... I made it up.. Blah lah.. Bye!

I miss you.. I love you.. I just cant keep you.. I know you're depressed, sad, and need someone badly by your side... Im sorry i cant be the one... Im sorry i lost you.. Im sorry that our friendship didn't last as strong and as long as we wanted it to be... I truly cherish you since forever til now... I miss you so much my heart feels like ripping itself.. The part where you carved your name on.. That delicate part of my heart that is crying so bad it feels like its writhing.... I still need you now.. But i cant cling myself onto you.. I cant bear to lose a friend like you... Yet we're becoming further and further apart... The usual "hi(s)" and "bye(s)".. The wonderful smile of yours.. That cheeky look on your face everytime i see you.. Is that what i had lost? Is that what im gonna miss out on? I wish we had back the times we hold so dear to our hearts.. Or maybe its just me being clingy?? Am i still as important? Am i still that person that you thought i was? Or do you hate me now?

Haiz.. A dedication for a special someone that i kinda lose already... I miss that person loads and loads... But i guess he/she wun ever noe it cos he/she thinks we're still just pretty normal friends.. Yah... Chillin....

You! I caught you smiling at me
You! I miss you calling me
You.... Im feeling rather blue
Perhaps you're missing me too

Who am i kidding
The way my hearts bleeding
Is like a radio without sound
Spining around and around

Is it just the way i am
Or do you really feel the same
Am i being over reactive
Isit that im being paranoid

I miss you whole hell lot
still i wish us back in time
Where everything was rainbowed-coloured
When everything wasn't blurred

My way of showing affection isn't clear
But thus far there is nth i truly fear
Except maybe the fact of losing a friend
Or going around the wrong bend

I lost my way quite soon after you left
For you i have shed million tears
For us my heart writhe and died
But thanks, you taught me how it felt to lose someone important...

I still love you...

blah lah.. Lousy poem... Bye!

There's not a single shit in my class that is helping me like it better... Yah.. My class still sucks in my opinion at least... It doesn't have that somethingsomething that i need in order to FEEL like a class... I dun feel like im ONE with my class.. And school being kinda like my second home... Having spend half the day in school with a class you dun really enjoy is torture not to mention IDIOTIC!!! All i ever do in that class is pretty much study, sleep, write stupid stuff anywhere, joke around a little, quarrel with some pple that seriously have no sense of humour and lastly looking at bloody faces that i dun like... Ok.. I dun hate every single one of my classmates but i just dun feel like they're like trustworthy?? Ok.. No offence to those in my class but they are a tad bit sexist and also a tad bit racist... But i dun really care bcos i dun wanna... Its killing me to think that i have to stya ard for another 1 and a half years with 'em.. Blah lah...

Haiz... Sorry.. May have been a lil harsh on my class peeps but hey.. Thats EXACTLY how i feel...There's just nothing special... The only happy time i have is when me xuli josephine and cindy laugh together at stupid jokes.... Yah.. Felt as if we are in our own world.... But bleah~ Like duh~ 3e4 '05 just aint muh type of class.. Maybe i just goota adapt to that place.. That place i call "MY CLASS"... Place i dread to go every morning.... That place i wish i wasn't in... Fuck you.. Fuck this bloody hell shit....

Yea.. So health and fitness club... The vice-president speaking here.. And im so clueless about everything that i think im useless... So many things to do.. Ok. Imnot THAT clueless but it seems like there's currently nothing i can do as the vice-president except make an announcement this friday asking all members and interested parties to meet... Yah.. And the China students game i gotto attend.... Japanese students games i have to attend as well.... Gotto collect bottles for that quiz thingy... Gotto go back on 20 August to do up the PE store room and make it into "our place".. Yeah.. Cant wait for da whole comfy corner thing... Gonna be so super damn cool...

Oh yah.. Nive is out of ODAC!!!! Congrats babe! You finally slimmed down and got yourself out of hell from running every Monday and Wednesday morning.. Good luck and stay healthy and DUN YOU DARE go back to ODAC again.. I'll kill you!!! *sigh* HOw i wish i was nive eh? And i bcome slimmer... Wah!!! Day dream seh mandy.... With my kind of discipline wanna grow slim... Might as well ask me go be anorexic right? Blah lah.. Im always gonna be this fat unless i start going on STRICT diet and start exercising 3-4 times a week and stop being such a lazy bum and ESPECIALLY stop eating supper.... Which is super unhealthy and fattening.... Bleah~ But supper in my family is most of the time "ka-toh-jian" Which is ONLY de-most-important-and wonderful-thing-in-my-entire life!!!!! But oh wells, i guess i gotto sacrifice aLOT to lose weight.. Im only lacking ONe thing now.. DETERMINATION!!!! Someone to push me to be slimmer and look prettier and healthy.. Dun EVER say i must do it for myself cos im not those who wish to be REAL healthy and go vegan... Yea.. SO save it....

Blah.. Talking so much lately... On my diary.. On my blog type/write so much... In real life quiet like shit.. WTF is wrong with me... Im so off my track these days.. Yeah.. And exams are stressing me out BIGG time!!! Oh! Which reminds me... I passed my Physics test for the first time this year!! !5/30... Ok.. Its a just-pass but im still proud of myslef.. Cos if i noe if i studied enuf for it.. I could have scored better... Yupps.. Chemistry? Dun even start!!! Even i study until end of time also cannot pass byhalf mark ah... Sianzation probation.. Watever in the hell that means... BLeah`

*hugs* *kisses*

Shoutout to De V.Gees!!!! Yay babes!! i love you guysssssss soooooo da much i think im gonna explode with love! Ahahah... You guys make my day everyDAY!!! You guys make me cry harder when im sad and laugh louder when im happy... (the crying part is cos i love you guys soo much)
And i love love lovce absolutely LOVE the times we have together and i cherish every millisecond in our small little kecik world.... I love you darlings and lucks for your studies!!!!

Well hi hi... My new comp is so super cool and i looooove it!!! Kinda not use to da screen though.. It bigger and the keyboard feels weird... But all is well.. The old comp is in my room.. But it aint got a internet connection.. So maybe for my mom to do her accounting work or watever..

Life's pretty okays these days.. Except the fact that i dun really like the situation im in... Exams coming and im still very clueless about chemistry physics and geog... I need to buck up so bad i think ill stress myself so bad ill die!!! Whoa!!! Aint that a surprise! Mandy's fretting over school and exams and HOMEWORK... So you see! Miracles Do happen...

Nevertheless, mandy's still alive and kicking... And too bad there's nothing anyone of you can do about it... I know there are a few who wish me dead but hey! Right back at ya! ;)

Im feeling rather moody or should i say pms-y right now so excuse the sarcasm... Yea yea... The usual.... Just that this time, i can clearly tell you that i am PMS-ING!! And that's not an understatement.. Its true.. I feel the hormones in me taking over and that monstrous thing inside trying to conquer.... But im trying real hard to beat the burning temptation of just screaming my ass off at anyone who talks to me ... I have had many urge to scream hurtful things to my brother(wilson). But i managed to overcome it.... But i have to thank him also, bcos in that numerous occasions where he was close to pissing me off, he shutted up and i cooled down.. giving me time to THINK before i talk/scream or watever shit i felt like doing to him.. Including strangling him to death... Yah right.. He's my brother.. I would never do that even if he tried to kill me first..... Bleah~

My feelings for a certain person is coming back and im pretty freaked out about it cos i dunno whats gonna happen next.. Im really trying not to think about him cos i promised to really study hard first before love stuff comes... Yah... Like THAT will ever happen... But i can't!! I just can't!! Can't fall for him again cos its gonna hurt real bad... Yea.. Dead!

Im really off limits for the moment so be cautious pple... One wrong move and ill bite your head off... Dun blame me.. Blame her.. (whoever HER is..)

TERMINATED.... (to be continued....)