Friday, February 18, 2005
Well, hi hi !! Today was ok day. Although i didn't talk to my close friends much. Like i said, im not gonna get attached. So i didn't talk to them.. I feel sad actually for that. But other than that. Today was pretty fine.
Went for the morning run today. Was nice lah.... It kinda made my neck ache go away. I dunno. Im starting to like ODAC perhaps. Haha... And i think Yeni is so super cute. She so funny and all. Nice talking to her. Haven't been doing that since the start of school this year. Well, i kinda had fun today talking to her. Especially just now after school. Saw my crush.. Super duper cute okay??? Even Yeni also say so. Gosh!!! I think i really really like him. Shit!!! Im dead. Haha....
Okay, i can't stop smiling since the time i saw "him"!!! He's so sweet and cute and handsome and nice and holy kermoly!!!! Im in like with him!!! Haha... I dun think it's infatuation lah. He's like the best guy i ever like. I mean character wise lah. And i think looks wise he is the absolute best too!!! haha. Im crazy. Forgive me.... It's in my blood.
Oh yeah! Physics test today was a total screw up. I dunno. I didn't study for it AT ALL!!! Like totally! I think i'll fail although the paper's kinda easy. Aku tak tau.... I just hope i pass both my e maths test and physics test. I can't afford to fail any one of 'em. But if i do, i have only myself to blame. That i know.....
So im gonna go watch my brother play rugby later ons.... At DAMAI sec i think... Im going with Clar. And my mom will be meeting us there laters. Cool!!! Been craving to watch rugby since last year.. I'm so gonna go to every match of this rugby season. Haha.... Ais's "DREAM GUY" is gonna be there too.. Haha... :)
Okays... gtg! Love ya'all! *smucks
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Hello hello pple... So todays a "i-dunno-wat-is-all-this-shit-about" day. I just cant seem to figure out some stuff tat's happening. It's just really confusing. Today, i wanted so badly to just break away from my 2 closest friend. I dunno. I'm prolly afraid ill lose 'em soon. So i'd rather just leave now then feel so hurt later on. Haiz.. I just freaking dunno. I didn't talk much to them today. I didn't really want to actually. But im feeling so guilty about it.
So, im really pissed with Gladys. I dunno. She's prolly pissed with me too. Cos she thinks i didn't tell her bout the whole "meet in the library" thing. For fuck's sake, if i wasn't the one to told it to her when i saw her after geog class, she wun even fucking know. And now she's freaking pissed with me for something i didn't do. What the fuck is her problem sia?!?! I mean, i got the initiative to ask her to meet us there and she fucking show me that bitch slut whore attitude. Like i fucking give a fuck..... CB.....
Then that kinda dampened my hyperness spirit and i wasn't as hyper for da rest of the day. But i tried really hard to be hyper. Ended up like a crazy bitch... One minute hyper the other not... I guess the pple around me tot i was pure crazy or something lidat. Yeah.. Haha...
So the whole Innovative thinking course thingy was a disaster. But i had lots of bunches of fun.. Was hyper then lah tats why.... And i realise finally how cute "one particular" guy is.. I always tot he looks super retarded but today i experience his cuteness level... Haha... But thru the whole course, i wasn't listening to anything the guy was talking. I really really didn't got in ANY thing he said lor.. Was pure boring the way he teach.... But i had fun making jokes with my group and laughing my guts out.. Bleah!
Today got the luchtime concert. Not bad lah. I only got to catch the first two performance and i had to go for that stupid fucking course. So sian... I didn't wanna go at first lor.. But then david say the teacher was pissed.. So i tot he would go call Moley tan to complain or something lidat. So i just went there... Unwillingly...
Haiz... I dunno whether to call her anot sia.. I dunno leh.. I dun feel like talking to her but at the same time i can't dun talk to her. I've grown quite dependent on her lah... But i know surely one day will split one. Somemore now the whole 2e2 "is gone" thingy telling me that friendship never lasts. I kinda dun wanna have anymore close friendship with anyone. Even with my two closest friend right now. Haiz.... Im really confusingly screwed.....
Ok lah.. Let ya'all figure out life urself. Dun wanna dampen ur spirits yeah? Kays, love ya'all!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Helloz! Well, today was aight.... Nothing much. Just that i screwed up on the maths paper. Fucking shit hole. How can i screw it up? Fuck sia.. All answers wrong leh.. sure fail wan.. 100%!!
So, went to see the guys play soccer just now.. They were aight too i guess. They keep kicking the ball out and they have to run ALL over the place to go get them. So funny. Lotsa peeps were there. Including my crush!! haha. He so freaking cute lah.... To tell you the truth, im liking him more and more every minute. He's just da cutest nicest coolest guy on earth for me right now. It sounds like i have infatuation on him though... Haha...
So the whole soccer thing was kinda fun. Oh yeah.... Today ODAC was crazy sia. Ask us run 10 rounds leh. Crazy bastard. But i finished it eventually lah. And then went to the hall feeling all so wet and all... So freaking uncomfy.... But after that cool down ok already lor....
Yeah.. And i dunno how possible is this but Gladys seem to like guan yu like bloddy crap. She keeps sayiong he's so cute and all. Whoa! Ever imagine how Guan kai will feel? Pple say his bro cute never say he cute. Sad sia. And Guankai broke his arm today. Scary!! He can't play soccer for a few months i think. Wow!!! Really pro sia. But he didn't cry. He's a man now... No more crying.. Haha.... Bleah!
Haiyoh!! I cant stop thinking bout my crush. He's just so unforgetable. Damn charming lah. Even Ais also think so lor!!! Oh yeah... Talking bout Ais... She's like so in love with Asanul... Like what?!?!?!?! So funny... I dunno how she can fall so deeply in love with a guy whom she hardly talk to for 3 minutes... Weird!!!!
Weel, these days have been pure gambling days. Like Mahjong and cards and all... So fun.. I realise how interesting and addictive Mahjong is. I just can't seem to stop playing it. And cards are fun to play too. Like it's either you win loads or lose lots! Muahaha.. I think currently my input more than output. That means im RICH!!! haha.. Im so gonna watch movies and prolly buy a pair of cool school shoes.... Yeah...
Ok.. Guess ill blog till here then. No mores for the days. Good days to all!
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Hello hello all!!! Wassup? Well, to sum up my days these few weeks... Life's all screwed up for me. But CNY has been good. Cny is the ONLY good days of this year. How screwed am i? I'm 101% screwed. The only thing puzzling me is why im still living in this world. Haha. All my life i have been waiting just to screw up? How puzzling this world can be. But somehow i never give up, do i? I just can't. If i give up i'll be like............... giving up? So not me huh? I can give up on almost everything. But i just wun give up on life. I just wun. That's some determination for you!! Haha... But i can tell ya'all one thing. I screwed up in every aspects of my life. Haiz.... Some times i wonder how can ONE freaking person screw up so bad? It's just pure impossible. But i eventually proved myself wrong. But trust me, i'm gonna make it. I'm gonna fight til the end. Ha! that's the difference between the MANDY befroe and the MANDY after. I wun bow to fate. In the first place, i dun even believe in fate. What bullshit that all is!!!! So i have realise how lazy i have been these days. I'm so lazy that i dun even wanna find time to put up photos. I'm sorry guys.. I promise.. Soon.. Soon.... But sorry if i break that promise. Cos it'll either be the com screwed up or im just plain lazy.Oh yeah... these days i have been crazy-ing over writing poems. I dunno why.. But i have been somehow "expressing" my feelings thru my poems? Haha.. But most of 'em sucks to da core. Only a few pass the standard. So that shows that i gotta work hard on tat. I dunno why i suddenly got fetish for poems also. Dun ask me..... And i have been craving for ais's aunt's sugar "cake" also. I dunno. I din really liked it at first. But after a few weeks, i decided it wat delicious and have been craving for it since. Muahaha...And here's a few words of tots for ya'all :* Love's nothing but pain, confusion and sometimes, sweet toughts** It dun matter how hard you fall. Just how you stand back up** Whenever you feel that the whole world's judging you. It's just you judging yourself** Those who has perfection wants perfection. But those who knows perfection hates perfection*Well, a few of 'em i dun even know wat they mean. But they kinda sound nice to me. So yeah... There you are. One post in my blog finally. Tatas all!
