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Thursday, March 31, 2005

Hello!!!! Im feeling really really hyper now.... not gonna say anything bad cos today was kinda a good day... Hmmm... was damn tired in school though. Somemore Geography class was pure boring.... Then miss james dun let me sleep.. Damn her! Nvm... Haha.. Happy happy...

Maths class was fun though. Changed seats. And Alvin and Benson was funny. Cindy had a great time laughing man.. First time maths class passed soooo freaking fast... It was fun lah. Or maybe it was becos i was so freaking hyper... Then later some asshole down there show me attitude, spoil my mood for awhile. But then i became hyper again. I tell you, my legs feeling so itchy now sia... Kau! Bloody hell....

Ok.... So, camp was good. I miss camp and the instructors there... I miss nick and jo.... I miss camp fire night. I miss acting ah gua.. I miss shouting my cheers and i even miss the dirty toilets and scary insects.... Haiyoh... Hmmm... Campfire was by far the best.... Then comes Kayaking.. Then nature ramble.. Then the CRC.. Then cheers.. and then low elemenst and stuff. Was so fun.... There was one really cute instructor where everyone liked him.. But i think that Bobby guy was damn funny.... I like humourous guys.. Haha...

Talking bout humourous guys... There was this really really funny waiter in swensens today when i went to the J8 one with Cindy today for ice cream!!!! He was like calling us BABEHS... Then he spilled water ALL over the floor while pouring water for us... Haha.. He was saying how school sucks and all. Damn funny.... Then there was this really weird guy.. Who walks around and keeps looking at people eat.. Weirdo!!!

Haha.. Ok... Life's being not so bitchy lately.. So im pretty ok.. Hmm... stop here fer now then.. Toodles!
Sunday, March 27, 2005

Hey ya'all!! Ssup? Today's been nth but boring. And at least i know HE isn't bored cos he got some other stuff to do. Haha.. Guys, they never seem to get bored huh? They will always have their soccer matches to watch, their xbox to play with and all their playthings to keep them company. And they can always just walk into a court full of strangers and just make friends with all of them in 10 minutes. Im very very amused by how guys socialise. Cos i believe very little girls can be able to do what most guys can do.

How many girls can just walk into a shopping mall alone and end up with 3 strangers beside her while shopping? How many ladies can actually walk into a class full of pple they absolutely dunno and come out of class knowing each and everyone of them? It's just weird how guys can socialise MUCH better than us girls. Im not saying that's bad or anything. Just that guys dun really hold grudges for long and they can never seem to HATE anyone. They're just very sociable and amiable creature. I dunno why but i guess some scientist should come out with an answer to that. Or is that qns already answered??? Haha...

Ok... Enough bout my analogy on the different sexes... So, have everyone packed for camp already?? Just a few more hours and tah-da!! We'll be on our way to camp!! Wooohoooo!!! We'll do some serious damage to the campsite agreed?? Haha... I dunno bout that. I hope i dun get embarrassed or watever during any event. Cos it'll be so... embarrassing??? Haha... Nvm... I'll push muhself to the limit. I wonder how it'll be like. Cos let me tell you a secret.. I've never been to a REAL camp before. You know? Those stay overnight ones? I think the only camp i've been to is pri 5 camp. Which totally sucked. Excpet one instructor was pretty cute... Haha...

Okay... See!!! I definitely need to put my priorities right. All i ever think about is cute guys. I need to GET A GRIP!!! Haha... Camp's gonna be so damn fun. But too bad ill only be spending most of it with my class girls. I definitely hope im not anywhere near that slut whore bitch. But if i do, ill just grit my teeth and get on with it. Cos i aint gonna jeopardise my fun just cos she's there. Haha.. Ok...

So, i promise to ut down on my postage right? Yupps! Done. smucks to all! *i love DADA*

Hello! Im bored at home... Hmmm, last night was fun.... I had this long "girl" talk with ais over the phone. She was telling something about her dream.. Which was totally superbly cool cos it included me and HIM!!! Haha.. Totally awesome man. I so wish i had that dream. But halfway thru that dream some ass invaded and spoil the moment!!! HAha... NVm...

Well, talking bout him! Im totally crazy over him. He's the cutest of all human race and my feelings for him aint never gonna fade away. He's mine!! And which ever idiot wants to get him, you have got to get urself prepared for a darn BIGG fight... Cos im not gonna let him go without a fight man. No ass can ever take him away. Especially that slut whore bitch.. Haha. Fine.. I shall stop being so drama..

Anyways, im feeling really bad bout not going to David's church though. He invited me over for easter but i couldn't make it. So here's the public apology : SORRY DAVID! I wonder if Alvin went for it though. Cos he was invited too.. Haha...

I was just thinking bout the talk i had with Ais last night. So funny. She was refusing to tell me the climax of her dream and i had to beg and beg her to just get it over and done with. HAha. But the climax was goooooooood.. It was totally cool man.. Too bad she had to go watch Simple life. If not we would have talked longer and i would totally gag non-stop about HIM and she can tell me more bout her life recently. She says her life recently sucks. I dunno if it can be as sucky as mine but well, THAT'S LIFE!!!! Haha.. Get it?? That's life! Haha.. (not funny!)

Nvm... Im pretty hyper now... Oh yeah.. Forgot to tell you guys, i think HE is gonna noe that i love him soon. Cos i think i have been giving really obvious clues to him that he is THE ONE!!! Haha. Crazy... No lah... I just dun want my feelings to be hidden. Yeah... Come to think of it, none of my feelings were ever hidden when it comes to love or likes... Haha... That's mandy for you...

And i tell you, this girl in muh class is friggin pissing me OFF!! One day i spit right at her face sia. Seriously, she's gonna step over the line soon enough. So there's no difference if i hate her now or later. I just HATE her!!! She's a slut. She's irritating and she is FUGLY!!!! That "nth-but-useless-slut-whore-bitch" should die! She's more irritating than Moley. At least Moley doesn't interrupt you when you're talking to someone else. I tell you, one day she goes too far, she see the real side of mandy low, she gonna die like hell.. I make her fucking life difficult until even she die i still dun let her off... And my classmates should fucking know better to side her. Or else they die with her... Haha. IM EVIL!!! IM MEAN!! MY NAME'S MANDY LOW!! SO WATCH OUT EARTHLINGS!!! IM COMING UR WAY!!! Slut....

OK...Enough bout her. The tought of her makes my tummy upset, my eyes wanna pop out and my lungs wanna come out and WHACK her in the head. Haha. Im crazy. I am!!! I really am.... Ok.... Nvm... So what is it i wanted to say before that bitch came and interrupt(AGAIN!!!).???!?

Hmmm... Oh yeah.. Camping tmr. Im all packed and ready for it. BRING IT ON dude!!! Haha.. My mom ask me to bring extra undergarments just in case of any unforseen circumstances. Haha. Im refusing to do it but ill do it anyway. Haha.I mean wat can happen? I get so scared i pee on my pants? Duh!! So NOT gonna happen.... Hah. If i ever get so freaked out. I'll punch myself in the face and get a life. Haha. What so scary bout jumping off a few storeys? Like that'll kill... If it doesn't kill? Mandy's definitely gonna do it. Cos mandy's the ultimate loser who's not afraid to die. Yay!! Hooray for mandy(spongebob)!!!! Haha....

Well, my dad's back from china and korea. He said Korea's stuff are pretty ex. Actually his exact words were "Don't go Korea. The things there are very VERY expensive"... Haha.. On the other hand, he think China's a great place to go!! And he's gonna bring Bryan and us to china someday. He said the food there were cheap and superb! But he said the pple in China had less courtesy than the pple in Korea. Haha. He bought perfume for my mom. That's pretty sweet i think. I think my mom was pretty touched by that cos she refuses to let me have that perfume. Haha... My dad din't buy anything for me though. What a big disappointment. But heck lah. I dun care anymore. Dun WANNA care...

My freaking hair is making the back of my neck perspire like crap. So i better go tie it now. Seriously, i dunn how some pple can let down their hair and not feel warm. I keep perspiring when i let it down. It's an omen that i should cut short hair.. Should i??? ANy comments on that??? Okays.. *done tying up hair*

wow!! I feel soooo much cooler! A round of applause for the hair-tie!! It's a life saver i tell you.... Sometimes i feel hot when i let down my hair, hot until like i getting heat stroke or something. I see a hair tie anywhere, it's like someone cam and sav my life from the freaking heat. Haha. That's singapore for you. Im so not gonna let down my hair all the time unless im in a colder country... Haha. True wat... The sun in singapore is like prohibiting all of us to let down our hair. At least THAT's wat I think....

Who cares bout my hair anyways... Haiz.... Im so bored... Im suppose to write a testimonial for Cinday but friendsters undergoing some construction to make our use of friendster more enjoyable. Bleah~ Like who cares?!!?!?!? Just let me write the testimo than Cindy can get off muh back!! Haha.. Talking bout Cindy.. I think she's totally getting influenced by me. She's falling in like with every cute guy she sees... Wat the hell right? Like "ooh.. Mandy look! Cute guy!!" or she'll go "Eh.. mandy cute guy!!" Haha.. She's more crazy than me NOw... Cos i've found my guy and unfortunately she's still picking her choice from her list of Hott and Tempting guys. Haha... She's really funny when she's all over some cute guy though. Im getting used to rolling my eyes at her and giving her the "watever-is-ur-problem??" look.... Haha....

I cant believe this ya'know? Since i became sec 3... All i ever talk about is guys guys and more guys... It's like my life revolves around cute and sexy guys. Haha... Im such a bitch.I should seriously SMELL THE REAL WORLD and get started on building up for my future. Haiyoh, how to do that when you're having a guy jumping on ur nerves and driving you crazy evrytime you try to get serious??? Huh? You tell me lah? How??? Haha.. I cant blame DADA for my laziness... It's me who i should blame. Why cant i just take out a textbook and start reading or practice some mathematic formula or what shit??? Why? Why cant i be like sookie and khrisha and my other friends who are working so hard to be good? Haiyoh.. Mandy mandy... You such a failure sia.. Tsk tsk tsk.. Im disppointed with you.. Haha.. DUH!!! Im crazy....

So, there's no harm in loving someone just as long as you get ur priorities right and DO NOT ever blame anyone for wat happening. That's what i have learnt today. Good day and thanks for listening! *smucks smucks smucks!*
Saturday, March 26, 2005

Hello!!! Hows ya'all? Im feeling pretty bored and all.... So decided to just blog for awhile. So, i went shopping today with my mommy and Bryan. We were suppose to be buying a Levi's jeans for my bdae present but i got so turned off when i found out i have to wear a size 35 for a unisex cutting. WTH right? I tot a Levi's is suppose to make me feel good but it's making me feel so fat. Hah. I noe im fat lah but im wearing a size 31 or 32 then they gimme 35!!! Fuck sia. Spoil my mood for a Levi's.

So i ended up buying a 45 bucks top and a 49 bucks skirt. I tell you.. Im damn in love with the top man. It's brownish and the neck line's a bit low. And it totally goes with the damn freaking confy skirt. Haha. So that was my bdae gift. Im quite happy with it actually. I dun want a Levi's anymore. Stupid ass.... Haha. I enjoyed the shopping today cos i wasn't wearing heels. So i was very comfortable and my leg was definitely NOT sore after all the walking. I've decided not to wear heels often anymore. Cos i realise everytime i wear heels im not as comfortable and i always end up getting leg muscle ache or a sore foot. Haha..

Ok. So, i was just thinking to back on my bdae that day. There was this two Beng-ish guys at the "making-passport area". I was with my mom and bryan there. Then i walk pass them, and they went like "wee-ooo-weet" *whistle* Haha. I rolled my eyes and blushed. Cos i never tot of myself as a "wee-ooo-weet" kinda girl. Then i was pretty paiseh. After that, Clar and my bro came from outside and join me. Then i saw the two guys lokking our way. I couldn't help but think that they were thinking "wah! Got so pretty girl with her. Say wee-ooo-weet to the wrong person already lah" Haha.. Then i started laughing to myself on the spot. I think Clar and my bro must be thinking i was crazy. Haha. Damn funny sia... Then when i walk pass them they looked at me and smile. Like what shit... Bengs....

Haha... Did i tell you how my stupid dumb gastric ruined my bdae by ruining my meal at Secret recipe? Bloody ass lor.. I was eating happily then suddenly kena gastric. Then i lost my appetite. But actually, the food at the PS outlet wsn't as good as the food from the Junction8 one. So it's not totally my gastric's fault. But it was mainly my gastric lah. Dumb ass....

Well, im still totally crazy over DADA. I cant stop thinking bout that boy man. Seriously, he's driving me nuts!!! I cant help but wonder how he would react if he actually found out that i like him. Haha. I think he'll totally avoid me for awhile then maybe be very shy and embarrassed bout it or something. Haha. Im seriously thinking bout telling him how i feel though. It's feeling very "compressed" keeping it to myself(although many pple noe already)... But i need HIM to noe.. Then i can get PEACE in my mind. But im just afraid the outcome will be bad or even WORSE than i expect it to be. So im keeping LOW for awhile. I cant aford to even lose him as a friend man.... How to risk telling him? How? You tell me how!!!??!??

Haiyoh.. Mandy ah mandy.. Stop being so crazy over a guy lah. He's just a guy. If he dun like you, just dun give a fuck and get on with life. Why you hesitating so much to just tell him how you feel??? AlahDUI!!! I don't know? It's killing me!! I really dunno... For the first time im actually really REALLY REALLY REALLY afraid of the outcome. I mean i have been afraid of telling my "ex-crushes" how i feel before. ...But i've never really been so afraid that they will start to avoid me before. I usually just dun give a heck about what they're gonna do if i told 'em. But DADA's different. I just feel diff towards him. Great!!! Thx alot!!! Now i am seriously in deep shit. Im officially an idiot!!! Crap ass....

Hahas... Okay lahs.. Dun wanna trouble ya'all with muh love life. Cos if it's killing one person already, i'd better stop spreading the animosity around. What ever does animosity means? Jsut got it from the song "where is the love" ... Haha.. okie dokies! Sleeping time!! Good night to all and have a great day ahead! *smucks to whoever that cares* And smooches for HIM* ;)
Thursday, March 24, 2005

Well, hello. Today was a utter mess man. I made a total fool out of muhself. I got many many birthday wishes. But i wasn't really really happy lah. I WAS happy. But just not very happy. Dunno. My life have been in a utter mess. So i cant help but feel moody. But i forced mself to act happy. Turn out im quite a good actor UNTIL the last part of the show where i toatlly broke down. Gosh! That's bad man. I totally freaked everyone out!!!

Haiz... Even when im out with my family, im acting. I somehow think i have been putting on a mask EVERYDAY since my life turned upside down. Nobody ever knows how i really feel inside excpet my written diary. And even sometimes me myself, i dunno how i feel. It's weird... I dunno... Secondary 3 has turned me back into the monster i was last time. I cant stop the change. It's making me and everyone around me turn evil. Haiz....

Danny and Iskandar was being pretty irritating today cos they kept on saying i was crying and all. Crazy ass(s)! And i absolutely hate it when they not only did not help me scold that bitch they still go HELP that bitch. And Danny totally gave my sweet away. So much for being kind. Bleah. Well, everyone ate their own sweets except him. Thx alot "friend"!!! Bleah~ Haiz.. Im just feeling so much angst in me. Dun blame me if i say any wrong things ah...

Moley gave me biscuits and asked the whole class to sing to me. I was damn embarrassed by that. But it was nevertheless, sweet of the class to not complain bout it. Hmmm... im so not gonna eat that biscuit though. Im gonna grow a big fat mole if i eat 'em!! Haha. Joking lah... Tmr's a holiday. And im already missing DADA already. No doubt he was being a lill ass-y but still counted as sweet on my bdae. But i still love that boy... And i can confirm it now that IT IS love. Ain't nth gonna do anything bout that.

Haiz.. Talking bout today after school... i cant believe i broke down man. It's disbelieving even to myself. But wat can i say? behind every tough cookie there's a soft spot. And you just have to touch it a lil and the whole darn cookie will go soft. Haiz. Dunno what shit is that also. Haha... Well, had a great long talk with Logen in just 20 mins. How nice is THAT man...Haiz... Then so many pple see my crying face. Tried all ways to try to block but my face to bigg!!! Haha...

I dun think DADA saw me cry. Maybe he saw but he just dun wanna talk about it. Seriously, if he had ask me why i cry, i would have totally told him cos of him. Which is not ebtirely true but HE was partly why i cried. Haha.. Beenm a damn damn long longgggg time since i cry over a guy. Hmmm.... Feels weird being in love again. Well, one sided love i mean. I dun even noe how that boy feels for me. Haha. He prolly dun even care bout me. Haha. Yupps. Who cares!?!?!?

So my love life ain't really going the right way... Is it??!? What you gusy think? I got chance anot? Muahaha.... And my dad's still in China... Or is he in Korea now? Dunno lah... And im feeling bored on MY bdae. Wtf?!?!?! I couldn't get a Levi's jeans cos im too fat!! No lah, tat particular shop no my size. Haha... Damn it... I have no candles to blow out cos i dun have mood to eat cakes and i have no mood to hear another time of HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.... My life is in a ttal craziness place where i am struggling to survive.

I dunno how i gonna survive 3 dys w/o seeing DADA. Haiz... I so wanna ask him out proper but i know he wun go out with me lah. Haiz... Dun care.. Just enjoy. And i feel like playing LAn but i din go with my bro and clar just now cos i totally HATE being dissed by them just cos i cant play well... Yupps. so to avoid any conflicts watsoever. Im gonna stay home and just BLOG!! Haha...

Ooooh!!! I made my IC already. Can get it next month. I think Moley will be giving it to me or something. Yay!!!! And i canged my passport photo too.. Like finally!!! Everytime i go checkpoint the person always ask me go change the pic.. But i lazy ar.. Then today since i was there so just do it lor.. Haha... Went to PS to eat secret Recipe. I tell you that place is not as good as the BISHAN outlet i tell you. Plus i didn't like the ambience there. Was to... er.... OPEN?!?!? Haha... Soemore got gastric pain, so spoilt muh appetite.

Im needing some sleep right now but i dun feel like snugging on my bed now. I feel tired but somehow like not physically tired. Although my eyes gonna shut soon... Haiz... Love is something that brings out lotsa mixed emo(s) in a kid. It's painful yet sometimes sweet. It's hurting me yet i dun seem to mind. Haiz. Aku tak tau... Im confused over all this shit thats happening.

Okays... Im seriously gonna go take shower than sleep. Tiredness! Dude take care always! *i love you DADA* smucks~
Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Hey.. Today's ShunLi's birthday.

To shunli : HAPPY BDAE TO YOU!!! Have fun!

Well, and tmr's MY bdae. HOw nice. HAha.. Fu hua gave me chocolates. YAY!!! Haha. Well, today was quite nice actually. Today was great to be exact. Compared to the rest of 2005, today was great. But i kept feeling very nervous inside. Like something's gonna happen lidat. You know? Like butterflies in ur stomach and all. Weird...

Today's DNT was fun. Practical. Doing some pen holder thingy. I screwed up mine man. Pure disfigured! Haha. And i had fun joking with da pple there. Was pretty pissed at something at first but i told myself "wat the heck?" and just enjoyed myself. DUH!!! The only time i can enjoy is during DNT cos it's the only time where i can get peace and actually joke around. Haha.

But i quarelled with Cindy though. After school, cos she was being angry at me for wasting her time and all. Then she just threw temper and storm off. After that she caught up with me but we didn't talk. Then she went to sit 232 bus and i sat 238. Saw the guys at the bus stop on the way to 238 bus stop. Wanted to say hello but too paiseh ar... Haha. Somemore just quarelled with Cindy. No mood... Haha... Leonardi... 20 soccer(sucker)... Haha.. Damn funny sia... SOmemore Yao wei today blur blur go say wat 11 player 9 reserve... Haha. Dumbass....

Anyways, i got a Crumpler finally. But not a bag lah. Its a handphone holder thingy. It's shock proof.. Yeah.. Hah. It's nice. I like it. Blue... And if i drop it my phone wun spoil. Cool right? I din really believed it at first but when i tested it, it seems pretty true to me... Haha. Yupps..

I cant wait for camp next week... It's gonna be soooo frigging cool... You know why? Cos everytime i hear bout my dad talking bout camps. My brother talking bout camps. Them talking bout what leadership wat discipline. Im finnally gonna experience it first hand. I dun mind eating baked beans even though i hate it. I dun mind letting ants crawl all over me when i sleep even though i am freaked bout ants. All i know is im gonna get thru this shit without freaking out... Yupps.. One teacher said something bout girls sure cry... Im gonna show her man... Girls aint as weak as that. Yepps... Bleah~

So im freaking tired. And i think im seriously gonna ponteng maths remedial tmr. Like what shit lah. I dun wanna stay in school til 4 plus just for fucking remedial on my bdae. That's so unfair. People get to celebrate it the whole day and now they still wanna take half the time away from my half day celebration. No freaking way man... I aint gonna let that happen. Im too spoilt for THAT(according to danny).

Blah lah.... Haha... I dunno what to write anymore. So ill just stop. Wanna sleep anyway. Nites pple!
Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Fucking weiner lah... Can't even skip school on muh bdae. Chee bai!! Wa lau... I just want a break on this school shit and i cant even get it on muh bdae. Suck dick lah! KNN.... Somemore i must stay back for that son of a bitch maths remedial. For fuck sia... Until 4 plus leh. Seriously lah... SLUT!!! I cant take this. I cant even get all this shit on y bdae. WHen the shit am i gonna get it? Fuck. Im so freaking pissed right now i puching the keyboard like it's muh enemy. Dude!!! Im suppose to be happy for my bdae. But i ain't. No. 1, got fucking school on that chee bai day. 2ndly, got maths remedail after that chee bai school time. 3rdly, i have to rush go make my IC and then go celebrate AFTER my maths remedial WHICH is after that chee bai school time. Fuck my bdae. Screw it man.. Wats the use of celebrating it when the main person is feeling so crapped up. Screw the secret recipe lah. Screw the Levi's lah. Cant even get day off from fucking school get this kinda stuff for wat? Fucking slut whore mamatayvliah... Wa lau!!!! I seriously need to punch someone right now if not muh anger wun ever subside.


Screw this lah. Im gonna PONTENG maths remedial. Fuck her. Expel me lah! Chee bai... Act all fierce and cool. She never see scary student before sia. KNN... Now she gonna experience what every fucking teacher should experience man. Crap so much bout us in class today. We never even object to the idea then she flare. Flare your arse lah slut! Down there talk shit only. Wanna fight one on one lah. Kao bei so much like got use lidat. I respect her for being a good teacher in maths. But seriously, she's got one fucking attitude that is seriously pissing me off! PUBOH(bitch in hokkien).... Haha. Just wanted to use that for fun.

SO what the fuck is all this? Its all my ranting bout my life now. I seriously HATE this. Why cant i skip fucking school on thursday? Just one freaking day only like will kill. Some more my bdae leh. Kau! I tell you, that day ar, whoever come kajiao me, you watch out for hell sia. YOu disturb me one small small thing only all hell will break lose. I make you wanna die but cant die ar... SLUT!!! I hate this freaking shit. If you get it from me on muh bdae, thank the person who made it so special.. My mom!! SHe's the one who refuses to let me skip school. Fuck school. And i hope moley tan and booshit dies quickly...

Okay, sorry guys.. Enough of vulgarities. I scared later the good people get influenced. Sorry man. Just *TOOT* all the vulgarities you see. Ain't stuff that lil' kids should see. Nvm.. ANyways, today was screwed. I was pure mad today. I was very sad at 10.05am. And when 10.06 came, i was freaking pissed. So ya'know? Pure mood swinging day. Like MAD!!! Jonathan praba prolly tot i need the Mental hospital FAST! Cos he was giving me the look of "what the fuck is wrong with you? mad ar?"... So yeah. I was damn crazy.

Cancelled tuition. Went to see Kor's rugby match against SJI at SJI... They won of cos. Cant remember the score but it was just an average win lah. Not a flatliner or thrashing or whatever. Well, My brother scored two tries. And he got injuries on both his hands. And they're back from their Lan gaming now. Great! Someone i can vent my anger on. Haha. Whatever. Im so NOT feeling the hyperness now. Im too pissed. Shithole!

Whatever. Im so pissed with someone right now. DaDa is really pissing me off with his so called *humour* right now... Fucked up shit.. Whatever. nites!
Monday, March 21, 2005

Fuck the feeling of boredom. The freaking show ain't started yet. Muh bitchy air-con is NOT getting cold. Fuck this! I'm hating life right now. All this shit happening to me. What should i do? I know! Do what Mr booshit says "in every obstacle there's an opportunity". Bull sia.... HE so optimistic ask him go suck dick lah. Mofo... Talk so much crap. And his talks are SUPPOSED to make us feel better. But im observing half the population in Beatty sleeping. Stupid ass...

Fucked up tv. Still not showing Desperate housewives. Stupid mediacorp. Cannot show abit earlier isit? Dumb news now. What parliament shit... Crap hole.... Why is nothing going the way i want. Oh shit. Sorry. I am suppose to be "optimistic". Ok. Wow!! My life's a bitch and im feeling like a total slut now. Oh my fucking god! I am feeling so happy now im ready to stuff my head up muh ass! Ooooh... That would be nice! Then i wun need to face the world and then i can slowly suffocate and DIE! Oooh yay! Im optimistic about everything! Everybody! Tell me ur problems and i "promise" ill give you a clear optimist view of life. Oooooh..... Fuck you lah. Bloody bullcrap.

Chee bai.. Feeling so bleah now i cant even describe the anger sia. Damn long never feel so pooped already. IT's nice being a bitch once in awhile. Try it pple. Start being SWB(s) a getting in touch with ur mofo deep within is cool too.In short, start being a slut. It's nice. Join da club. ARghhhh!!! Fuck this shit lah. I frigging wanna call that asshole and just shout into the phone everything i feel for him. But too bad, being a bitch doesn't mean im having courage to do something as stupid as that. So yeah. I shall CHILL and go watch some tv. Nites!

hello!!! I'm feeling damn sad now. Mostly cos of "him". He's driving me nuts. I dunno whats the meaning of some things he's doing. And i seriously dunno how i feel for him. Like wahshit right? I'm crazy over him and i dunno wat im feeling for him. But all we ever do is crap. It's boring!!! And he never can seem to get serious. But he IS funny. And cute.... Haiz... Bloody bitch lah. dun care already lah. Whatever comes comes lah.. Wat ever goes goes. Like i got control over this stuff lidat. Just leave it lor. See what comes out eventually.... Bleah~ I've a feeling i ain't got a chance though. He's kinda like avoiding me now. And im too tired of crapping with him to take initiative to talk to him. So.... just BLAH it and we''l see how it goes yah?

And i just realise this blog is slowly becoming a love blog. Not bout muh life but bout my love situation. Haha. That's weird.... I've been crapping loads in school these days. And today's ELDDS training was damn frigging fun!!! I seriously think tat ELDDS is gonna be GREAT!!! Like all the games and fun we had... Totally cool... And we gonna have a musical... How cool is THAT?!?!?!?! Crap!!! I dunno what role i should audition for man... But nevertheless, it's so gonna be a huge huge amount of FUN and excitement. Heh heh....

Muh dad's in china now. And he told muh mom that the china pple entertained him and his boss with 21 dishes for dinner!!! Gosh!!!! And there was only 6 pple there. Some more their dishes were those stack up dishes you know? Big portion!!!! Wow!!! Muh mom says they're crazy... Haha.... I hope muh dad's doing fine there. Cos i heard the weather's pretty cold. 1 or 2 degrees i think... Must wear more clothes.... And i also wonder if my dad will sms or call to wish me a happy birthday. Haha. I wish i could say i love you to him but im too thick skin and shy lah. So ill just say it here "Pa! Take care of yourself in china and korea and keep urself warm! I love you! *smucks*"

Yupps.. A shout out to me daddy... But i dun think he'll ever noe. Cos i bet he doesn't even noe i have a blog. Haha. Nvm lah. It's the sincerity that counts. Haiz.. So, im gonna catch Desperate housewives on channel 5 laters. And im currently munching on some Jap crackers. Nice. I love 'em... So tasty!!! Muahaha.. But i should have left it for later right? Dumb me!!! Haha. SO hungry. Whole day never eat. Only just now eat half a bowl of rice. Haha. Hope i dun get gastric. Yeah.. If i told muh mom i din eat whole day, she gonna start nagging man... Damn!!! I better eat muh gastric medicine. Im feeling some crap up shit around that area. Bitch!!! Why i ALWAYS get gastric. Fucking slut. Leave me alone!!! Stupid gastric.

Okies... Gonna go drink some water and wait for that show to start. Anyways, Lord of the rings was as superb as ever. I'll never get tired of it. Heh heh.... *winks*
Sunday, March 20, 2005

Hey all... Ssup? Muh dad's on a plane now. To shanghai. Yeah. Went to send him off today. Saw his boss. Kinda old for a guy named Winson. Haha. Dunno lah. Nvm... I went to watch the spongebob squarepants movie though. With Bryan and muh mom. It was kinda funny lah. Except Bryan was making so much noise and all. He wanted to go home. I shud have known. Bryan wun stay in the theatre for long wan lah. Haiz. Nvm....

So, i guess i will have to do some hw laters. Cos so far i only finished my maths ten year series. Yeah. Haha. At least i did SOME. I dunno why im feeling so down. I was ok awhile ago. Darn my mood swing man. I hate it... But i cant help it. I havent taken muh lunch yet. I dunno wat to eat. Dun feel like eating anyways.

Well, im wishing i can talk to "HIM" now. But he wun EVER talk to me, not even on da phone. Haha. And i dun feel like sms-ing him. It's getting boring just sms-ing. I know im asking too much but DUH! It gets really bored just crapping thru a few words on my hp. Why can't he just pluck up the courage and talk to me over the phone? Crap....

I'm really excited for my bdae though. Yay... : I can't wait... Secret recipe. Haiz.... No mood lah. So many things going bad for me right now. I'm losing interest in almost everything. Somemore these days television programmes are screwing up muh mind. I mean, all shows on tv now all talking bout how screwed up pples lifes are. Kinda got me thinking tats the whole wide world's screwed. Bet there's millions of pple feeling the same way. Duh!! Televisons are very good weapons to brainwash the pple of this world man. Hey!!! Whoever can control all channels of the tv, he can totally rule the world man. Haha.

I bought a new blusher for just 4.90. Haha. So cheap right. But i bought wrong colour lah. Nvm. I gonna buy another one. Haha. I tell you, blusher, to me is the ultimate make up on earth man. With a blusher you no need any other make up. Cos i think tat blushers make you look more alive. And thats wat make up is for isn't it? So for what go put tons of make up on, when you can just use a feel brushes of blusher? Right? Haha.. Nvms... Dun cares anyways...

Oook pple, im going to stop typing now cos muh hands are telling me they're lazy and they wanna stop. They say i working them to hard. Must give em some slack. Yea? Ok. Tatas!
Friday, March 18, 2005

Heelo!! I posted pictures... Not all lah.. Still got lots lots more. But i lazy to caption them now. so next time kays? sry... Bye!

Well hello guys! These fews days have been recovering day for me. And darn it. Im still having mild gastric pains evry now and then. How sick is tat? Haiz. Haha. Anyways, i've relinked and linked some friends. So do visit their blogs too. And remember to tag on each and everyone of 'em just to show you're there, or just simply bcos you have nth else better to do(like Yhih huua). Haha..... Joking dude.

Anyways, was watching tv since i woke up which was 11. And i got pretty bored of those dumb shows so i decided to come blog instead. And i went online and got to chat with SOOKIE for awhile! Gosh! Can you believe it? Sookie's got a blog!!! Everyone SCREAM!!!!! Sh'es got a blog lke finally! I'm so proud of her. And i tell you, if she never told me, i wouldn't noe how many pple are having blogs nowadays. I'm so outdated. Prolly cos my com was very "sick" for the past couple of months. Time flies yea?

Well, im hearing that lotsa muh friends are having the time of their lifes piggin out everywhere with everyone. And for me? I've been either staying home cos im sick or cos i have to look after my bro. Damn! I'm missing out on a whole lot man. And i haven been watching a movie like since when? 4-5 months ago? Shitass.... Why is this happening to me? I cant seem to even enjoy my holidays these days. Sian.....

Arghhhh... i hate this. My bdae is coming and i dun even seem happy. Fucked.... How come im always the unhappy one? Haha.... Always the one staying at home while everyone's out there doing something. Haha. At least im doing ONE thing right. I'm saving money. Haha... But im super duper bored. And i dun wanna call anyone to talk to 'em cos im afraid ill disturb them. Some of 'em are prolly busy studying or some may even be shopping or out chilling with their mates. It's just so boring being me at home with nth to do except..... NTH?!?!??!?! haiz.... Boredom can kill any MANDY WANDY in the world. DumbAss....

Crap... I think im getting a sorethroat soon. My throat feels all dried up like a died flower. And the medicine is making me so damn drowsy. KNN..... And guess what?? Muh dad's going to CHINA next week. Meaning he ain't gonna celebrate muh bdae with me FOR SURE! Like wah shit sia. I knew something like that was gonna happen sooner or later. So bleah! Who cares! I cant wait for muh bdae treat though. Secret Recipe. Definitely hapchye's(clar & ME) favourite place to pig out BIGG TIME!!! Haha... Lamb stew..... Choc Moist Cake!!! Yum*

I cant wait to go back to school though. I wanna see that cute guy i like. Ya'noe??? "HIM"??? Yeah... Can't wait to see him again..... Totally cute like Gorgeously Cute!!! With capital G and C!! Haha... If only he noes i like him. Haha. The horoscope thingy in Life! says that i should express my feelings today. I'm still hesitating whether or not i shud believe that stupid thing. Cos i kinda gave up on this horoscope shit. Haha. But when it comes to love, nothing's impossible. Haha. Typical situation of "mandy in love". So pple!!!! DO NOT panick. I wun do anything rash. Im practical person(NOT!!), i wun put muh reputation on the line. Bleah~ Pure rubbish!

Okies pple. I think i've blogged enuf fer now. I think this post is gonna be so darn long none of you guys are gonna read finish it. So heck! Bye! Toodles! *smucks*
Thursday, March 17, 2005

Hello everyone! How are ya'all? Well, im feeling pretty nauseous now. Kinda feel like vomiting but cant seem to even spit out my saliva. Haha. I'll leave the gross things out. But i can tell you something. I feel like crap! I was so frigging sick yesterday i think i fainted for a moment. Can't remember what time i knocked off.

Well, i was suppose to be in malaysia playing golf right? I din really play much cos i fell sick since morning. I only played 3 or 4 holes before i was too weak to even walk. Then my parents have to cut short their golf game. They only played 9 holes but paid for 18 holes. I felt really bad. But i also felt like crap. The feeling was indescribable man. It's like my whole body went numb and weak. Totally awful seh.... Seriously felt like dying. Then we went back home after the incomplete golf game. And when i reached home, i immediately flew to my comfy bed and slept without heeding my mom's advice to eat my porridge first. Oh yah!! Now i remember! I had gastric in the morn. Then i started to vomit and vomit and vomit. THEN!!! I fell sick and got a fever. Wa lau.... Sad sia....

I still feel a bit sick today. But the doctor's vomit medicine kinda works. Im still having mild gastric pains. And i seriously have NO appetite at all. But just now i stuffed 8 mini buns into my mouth and forced myself to eat them. But i feel so weak and lazy to go buy lunch now. Haiz. If only "HE" was my boyfriend, "HE" would defintely look after me now. Haha. Fat hopes!

Well, i cant believe that even when i was so damn sick, i was thinking of him half the time. I was like "why isn't he calling?" or "please let him sms me!!!". See how crazy i am over him? Haiz. But well, i dun think i stand a chance lah. I think he likes someone else. And one of his friend was mean enuf to tell me i dun stand a chance. Oh wells, thanks for nuthing.

Ok. Better stop using the com. Head starting to spin. Darn it! Bye!
Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Hello pple of mandy's blog!!!! How are you doing? I'm fine, thanks for ur concern. And im pretty hyper now. So forgive me! Haha. Well, ill be going to Desaru tmr to play golf and hopefully play Go-Kart!!! Yay!!! Haha....

Just came back from Sembawang. Went there to eat the yummy yummy Thai food. Wow!!! Damn long never eat there. The food is number one thai food in Singapore i tell you!!! Super duper nice!!!And looking after Bryan the whole day today kinda made me really pooped out. Was so tired i almost fell asleep in the car. Dunno. But i had fun though. Haha...

And i missed out on seeing my brother's cute friend today. Ais saw him. And i didn't!!! Haiz... There's always PRO(s) and CON(s) to something lah i guess.... Nvm.. Still got lotsa chance to see him. Haha.... Rugby season wat... See!!!! I so pro right?!?!?!? Heh heh.... And i think Ais seriously gotta get a grip man.. She cant stop looking at the year book.... Haha. That's another OBSESSION for you!!! Muahahahaha....

There's currently no shitty television programme nice enuf for me to watch. So ill continue blogging. Stupid CSI... Lost interest in it a few months ago. Then stupid chi news. For wat must have news so often sia??? I noe lah... For knowledge of the world around you.. But fuck it!!!! Cant they just fucking put away with the 10 o'clock chinese news and put up some GOOD show instead??? Like continue with the nice nice 9 o'clock chi show on Channel 8???? Stupid television pple... Dunno wats good TV.... Haha... I think im pushing my limits here.. If any mediacorp pple sees this.... I'm dead like dead.... Muahahahaha... Like i give a damn.....

Anyways, My brothers going on a cruise ship with Clar and her family tmr. So i have TWO bedrooms to choose from. But ill still take my room. Cos the air-con is DEFINITELY much much colder. I LOVE MY ROOM!!! And my bed... and my two wonderful bolsters that have gone thru thick and thin with me..... and my blanket that protects me from stormy nights.... Oooooh!!! I love muh life at night!!!! Hahah...

Currently "blasting" the song "won't be there" by simple plan. I cant really say blast. Cos it's the softest it can go... Wat is this??? I cant even say it's loud. Cos i cant on it loud!!! Bryan's sleeping and my mom'll kill kill kill if she hears even a slightest bit of noise that is threatening her peace form Bryan's cry. Haiyoh!!!!! COS WHEN YOU WAKE UP... I WON'T BE THERE!!!

Oh yeah... Bout my super duper crush on this particular super duper cute guy? I'm really poop. Cos he kinda like avoiding me these few days. I dunno if he has his reasons but i am feeling REALLY REALLY bad. How can anyone treat anyone this way? It just hurts not seeing his name on my "you've just recieved a message from...."!!! And it hurts to not communicate with him. Pain lah pple. When you like this person or LOVE(so called), you just got this NEED to see him or have anything to do with him EVERYDAY!!!! Gosh!!! Die mandy DIE!!!! Why can't i just grasp the concept of a guy's thinking. "YOU" out there!!!! Why must "YOU" treat me this way?!?!?!? Love me pls!! Love!!! Love me!!!! Muahahah... *Died while typing*

Haiz. Love is a complicated matter. So i have decided not to think about it for about 1 second. WOW!!!! I feel much MUCH better!!!! Damn it!!!! What the fuck is wrong with me???? I cant stop thinking of "HIM"!!! I wish i noe what he thinking now. And i also wish i noe how he feels bout me. Gosh. He can really drive me crazy sometimes. Wait!!! Not sometimes, ALL THE TIMES!!!! Bleah~

Great!!! Great!!! Just perfect!!! Someone just messaged me and i was hoping soooo much it was him. But it wasn't.... And guess what? That spoilt my freaking mood.... Why?!?!?!Cos i seriously need him to at least show me that he's thinking of me now... Why cant he just type a HELLO! or something and send it to me??? Thanks "HIM"... Thanks a whole frigging lot for making me feel so desperate. While im going nuts over him, i bet he's at home in his bed hugging his bloster and NOT thinking of me. Oh wells, heck!!! Be gone muh friend!!! Never come back into my dreams!!! Be gone!! FLY!!! Fly away to a place where i will never remember you!!! Go!!! Bleah~


Ok.. I shall leave you guys to figure out who this wonderful man can be. This man who drives the crazy mandy crazy. This guy who can easily drive mandy nuts with just one message or phonecall. Well, take care. Dun stress over it!!! Muahahah. Nites!
Monday, March 14, 2005

Hello everybody!!!! Goodness gracious darling mama!!! My com is finally fixed!! How great is tat? Everyone say WOH~ooooooh!!!!! How nice man dude!!!

Ok. Well, this days been pretty cool. I've been living life like it's no more school days. Haha. Slackin and playing with Bryan and watching tv. Talking bout playing with Bryan. Me and clar brought him out today. To tp central. We basically went shopping at NTUC and played stuff at Kiddy Palace and walked around. Was fun!!!

Haha. Ok. Haha. Just finished watching desperate housewifes.I think tat shows damn screwed sia. Practically every household is physcho. All got crazy pple living there. They should call it Physchotic housewifes i think. But it's a pretty nice show to watch.. entertains me by telling me that there are more crazy pple living in this world other than me. Haha.

Oh yeah. And tmr will be pure me and Bryan DAY!!! Cos mama is sick and yehyeh gotta look after ah chye who is also ill. So i need to take care of Bryan. Haha. Tats why i cant meet Logen they all. Saddeing. Haha. Wonder what me and Bryan will be doing tmr. I hope can bring him to Junction 8 or something. Boredness.......

Haha... And im pretty crazy over that guy i guess. He can totally drive me NUTS!!! I mean wtf?!?!?! How did i even end up liking him? It's like weirdness of weirdness of craziness bleah bleah!!!!! Haha. Dunno wat shit lah.... The holidays are gonna be boring man. Can't see him. But nvm.... At least can use TEACHNOLOGY to communicate with him. Thats the use of technology right???? Haha... Super cuteness level up to a hundred and one percent man!!!! DUH!!!

And yay!! My bdae is coming!! One pair of cool Levi's jeans coming up?!!!!!! Yay!! Finally a Levi's jeans. Haha. I'm expecting pure yumminess during my bdae. SECRET RECIPE!!!! Yay!!! Yummy Irish Lamb Stew and Tasty choc Moist Cake!!!! And sweet sweet ice lemon tea!!! Woooooo!!!! Im gonna love muh bdae man.... Pure slackerzoid!!!

Ok... I guess ill blog again next time. Dun wuarry!!! Lots of time. Cos now com fixed. Broadband.... Holidays.... Best time to make up for lost bloggings... Haha. Muacks to all especially "him"!!!! Nites!

Hello everyone!! My com is finally fixed!! Yay!! Everyone say Wooooooo-Hoooooo!!!! Haha... Ok. Guess what? I cant really blog much cos i need to go watch my fave 9 o'clock show.

Hmmm.... So these days have been pretty fun. Holidays and all.... And my bdae's coming!! Yay!!!! I'm finally getting a Levi's jeans. How nice?!?!??!?! Im lovin' it!!! Yeah. And im gonna look after bryan tmr all day cos my grandma is ill and muh grandpa gotta look after ah chye who is also sick. Damn!! Haha. So i cant go meet logen they all. Saddening. Ok. Blog again later! Bye!
Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Hello!!! So watsup? Well, life's been improving. Cos i finally got to let go of stuff i should have let go long ago. And i have been taking whatever that comes and goes in stride. Dun really stress much on uneccessary stuff now. And i have a super huge gigantic BIG crush on this guy. So i dun think anything can overcome my joy of lovng someone. Haha. At least i THINK its love. Haha.

So, there have been a trllion tests these days. I cant even cope. So gonna fail my science and humanities... Gosh!! I seriously gotta buck up on me science. I HAVE to pass science. Haha. Maths have been ok except that the tests on maths have been every wekk and its KILLING me!!! Lucky i managed to pass all. Haha. For tat, im happy enuf.

Anyways, back to the guy i love. He's really super cute. I think most of my friends know i like him. Whatever he does just makes me happy even if it totally doesn't concern me. Haha. That's obsession for you... And my diary pages are filled with him on every page. He never fails to make me laugh. And we kinda seldom talk. We dun really talk. We just crap around. Which im already contented with. I really wish to know how he feels for me. But i just lack tat bit of courage to find out. Haha.

Okays, tats bout it guys.. You guys take cares and dun forget to tag.. Thanks!! Love lots!
Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Hello! I'm using my dad's com to blog now since my dumb fucking com is so useless i can only use it to listen to songs. Well, life in school these days has been pretty yucky. I have been dreading school since year2005 came about. It's a bad year for me lah. Thats all i can say. Nth have been going right for me since the day i became sec 3. I hate it!!!

My studies are okay except maybe my science and my mother tongue, as per norm. School really sucks for me man... Except the fact that i get to see my crush there, nth else really makes me happy. Well, i think i look pretty ok on the outside cos i have been finding ways to make mysellf hyper to show that im alright. But guess what?? I'm feeling like shit inside. It's like a world collapsing right before my eyes. Lost my close friends and best friends. Well, like what Mrs goh said "No two countries ever have true friendships" I guess everyone of us are like one country yeah?

I really dunno whats going on in muh life. I try letting go so many zillion trillion times but deep down i just cant seem to do it. Pain lah pple... Not easy to change a habit ok? I have been making a habit of being with my EX-best friends that when i have to pull away, its difficult. Haiz, just gotta accept it lah. I wun wanna fight cos if i fight it, i think there'll be lotsa disputes.

Haiz, oh yeah! I have decided i wanna study hard. Somehow i just cant seem to really slack anymore lah. And i have been wanting to bring bryan out everyday.. haha.. Guess im just to bored. Have nothing on my hands except work and family. Haha.Sounds like im a working adult already. So funny. Haha..

Ok. so basically, life's pulling a fast one on me. And all i have left is my family and schoolwork and probably a few "friends". So im considered normal for a human. There's nothing really wrong with me except that i am feeling so BLOODY MISERABLE now that i prolly would kill myself if you offered me 100 bucks to do it. Yeah. That's howmuch my life's worth now. Muahaha...

Good day to all and be good!!! *smile*