I KEEP TRYING TO BE HAPPY BUT I CAN'T.. .....
I really want to be happy but i don't know how or what to do....
James Morrison - Pieces don't fit anymore
"I've been twisting and turning
in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in,
closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore
You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises;
I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling
until all the feeling has gone
Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore
You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises;
I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until
all the feeling has gone
I don't know why
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore
Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why"
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I lost.... We all lost.... Words are just words until some action is put into place. And you made so many promises... Painted such a wonderfula dn awesome picture i couldnt let go. You told me to keep holding on. To keep on going and believe you. I believed you. And now you cant take all the shit and you let go. If you canttake the shit. Why did you ask me to hold on? Why do i keep believing? I told you, this would happen one day. But you'tr so good at pretending. Pretending like everything is alright and that it'll all be okay. That i believed you.
Im not saying im not in the wrong here. But the world is round. I didnt just wait around and do nothing. I tried so hard. and you keep saying you did. But did you? Did you really? Did you go against all odds and make sure that you make sure that it happens the way you say it would? Anyway its over... now i just gotta learn to let go......
I remember once you asked me why must i be so dependant? And yes, i don't have much goals or aspirations. I may not have a "diploma" or a "degree" future. But if you ask me what is my goals? What is my future? I would have answered you. But now i don't know. It just sounds stupid.
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It's times like this i believe that i should just DO IT..
