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Monday, May 31, 2010

AUTOPHOBIA - Fear of being alone or of oneself...
ATHAZAGORAPHOBIA - Fear of being forgotten, ignored or forgetting...
EREMOPHOBIA - Fear of being oneself or of loneliness...
ZELOPHOBIA - Fear of jealousy...
SOTERIOPHOBIA - Fear of dependance on others...
SOCIAL PHOBIA - Fear of being evaluated negatively in social situations...
POLYPHOBIA - Fear of many things...
PANTOPHOBIA - Fear of everything...

Well, fuck fear is everywhere...

AND THE IRONY

SESQIUPEDALOPHOBIA - Fear of long words...



So today's gonna be emo post with ALOT of pictures.. Some about love some funny.... =\   I dont know. Said some stupid shit that i didnt mean on FB cos i saw some stupid shit on FB. And also cos i heard some stupid shit from a friend. Felt like some stupid shit. And guess what? Stupid shits got response from Allen. HAHA!! WOW right? Like, fucking MIND BLASTING or what.. Haha... So yeah. I didnt mean what i said... Not in that tone anyway. I want to be selfish and i want to create a ll the havoc i can but im not arent i? Im just a mother fucking pretentious lil fuck that acts all i wanna do something but aint doing shit abt it, arent i? Cos if i wasnt, i would have gone right up to his house and go on strike the moment i knew i loved him and still loves him... Yes people... Im a pussy....





So i heard and saw that they arent doing very well. And yeah. I guess Gina is REAL. There REALLY is another girl. LOL... And.... Whatever it is... I realise... That giving him what he wants is the greatest punishment ever. Since i've done everything else. The only thing left is to pretend and say that i dont love him anymore and he meant shit to me. =)  I dont understand, how come a love like this can just disappear, but i guess it did in your side of the story. So, if this is what you want then well, here's to you... I dont love you and you dont mean shit to me. You happy? The moment... that i really feel that way. I hope in all hell that you feel the pain, the torture, the "i-wish-i-die-and-burn-in-hell" feeling, the tears roll down your face and your heart literally torn right out of your body.... I hope you feel all those that im feeling right now... Cos fuck you you fucking liar...




I found the card he wrote to me last night while trying to find a book. The card he wrote when he gave me that wallet and ask me to forgive him for somoe stupid mistake he did. Well, after a few moments of tears, i realise. That nothing changed. That i still feel the same, in fact worse. Like a downward spiral with no ending... But fuck yeah. I've planned to send flowers, ive planned to go visit.. I've planned chocolates and cards. I've planned rings and proposals. But im not gonna do any of that because .. like they say... The best kind of love is unconditional sacrificial love. But often, these love is one sided... WHY? BECAUSE IF IT IS TWO SIDED AND THE OTHER PARTY LOVES YOU BACK... HE WON'T LET YOU SACRIFICE.... =\





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AND ILL JUST TAHAN THE PAIN LIKE THIS LIL BOY HERE...
SO BRAVE... SO HEROIC... NOT!!!


Fucking eat you like BARNIE...


This maybe WHY TK says TELETUBBIES ARE ALIENS...


HAHA!! SYNDROME...


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So yeah.. If it makes you sleep better at night...
If it makes you kiss her better....
If it makes holding her hand feel nicer...
If it makes you work better...
If it makes you play better...
If it makes you lie lesser...
If it makes you a better person...
If it's what makes your days brighter and your nights less scary...
FUCK... I DONT LOVE YOU THE SAME ANYMORE.
And for today and PROBALY tomorrow...
I hate you...
Wednesday, May 26, 2010

TODAY'S TOPIC : Chinese songs from youtube that i have been trying to find... =) AND I FINALY FOUND THESE SONGS!!! Although these are not very happy song... But yeah... Classic old chinese songs have deep meanings.. =) Ill try to translate some for those who dun understand chinese.. =) And only four videos today... Dun want too many le... =(  I want more jokes le.. =)



This song means alot... About a guy who gives a girl alot of freedom. And she fucks it up by having another man. And he's like " I cant bear to put the blame on you. I gave you all the freedom. I made you feel lonely. That why.... So if you wanna leave.. I'll take the pain.."  He blames himself for her fucking up, he thinks that he probably hasnt given enough. He thought she would be touched by his ability to sacrifice... He wants to give her a chance, and ask who does she actually love... And if is it possible to take back her heart which she already gave to another man..         
=( Fuck i wanna cry liao.. CB!!! LOL!!!



This song actually sung by another guy. But i think this guy sings it better. Just forward to the part where he sings... =) HAHA! OK.

Its about him singing about a girl who left... Saying he wants to meet her... And that he cant forget all those memories.. And he still hasnt change... Asking WHAT THE FUCK is she thinking and why did she leave this mess here for him to deal with? AND.. He's telling her... "The person who loves you most, IS ME! How can you bear to see me sad? When i needed you most, you left without a word..."




This one isnt my favourite... BUT.. It's an oldies.. And i think it holds a very sweet story to it.. I like the way he uses anonymous to call the girl... HAHA.... =)


About a guy singing to an anonymous girl... Saying he's fallen in love, with reasons without answers... HE only loves her and is falling deeper in love with her... Since the day he met her... Asking her "Do you know im waiting for you? If you really care for me, how would you leave me here alone on this lonely night? How would you allow the flowers im holding to wilt away?"




THIS SONG I LOIKE~~~!!!  =)

Is about a guy.. Who's leaving a girl...Who has stopped loving him and loved another. He's telling her that when she chose to leave him... He lost everything... except loneliness and quietness... He spent one last night with her... Saw her cry... And while watching her sleep so innocently... He made one last request.... "Dont tell him the same things you tell me... Dont tell him, you will get scared at night.. Dont say you'll wait for his call no matter what.. Dont say you only love the flowers he sends you... Cos all these things, used to be part of me... "

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Ok fuck EMO time over!!! =) JOKES TIME!~

One for the girls... =)
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A Spanish teacher was explaining to her class that in Spanish, unlike English, nouns are designated as either masculine or feminine.

A student asked what gender is 'computer? Instead of giving the answer, the teacher split the class into two groups, male and female, and asked them to decide for themselves whether "computer" should be a masculine or a feminine noun. Each group was asked to give four reasons for its recommendation.


The men's group decided that "computer" should definitely be of the feminine gender ("la computadora"), because:

1. No one but their creator understands their internal logic;

2. The native language they use to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else;

3. Even the smallest mistakes are stored in long term memory for possible later retrieval; and

4. As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half your paycheck on accessories for it.


The women's group, however, concluded that computers should be Masculine ("el computador"), because:

1. In order to do anything with them, you have to turn them on;

2. They have a lot of data but still can't think for themselves;

3. They are supposed to help you solve problems, but half the time they ARE the problem; and

4. As soon as you commit to one, you realize that if you had waited a little longer, you could have gotten a better model.


The women won!! =)








I seriously thought it was their legs... HAHA...








HAHAHAH!! FROGS!!!


I dunno but this reminds me again of harris...
HArris is a fucking joke! LOL!! EVery joke site i go too there's at least one joke that i know sounds so damn harris... LOL...


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OMFGHS!!! I just remembered a dream i had recently.. LOL... A mash up of... LOONEY TUNES CARTOON CHARACTERS.. DINOSAURS FROM THE LOAST WORLD/JURASSIC PARK... and JAPANESE PORN STARS!!! I tell you that fucking dream was not only scary, exciting.. butthe ending was orgasmic i tell you... that porn star... her boobs... and the dinosaurs outside our hiding place... lol... and i hugged her cos she was scared... and she was wearing nth!!! LOL!! FUCKING GOD.... I think i have a think for hott japanese girls now.. OH who am i kidding!! I'VE ALWAYS had a thing for hott japanese girls... lol... But that girl in my dream.. She seems taller than most japs..... Maybe she's half korean.. LOL!!!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010

TODAY I FEEL LIKE DANCING ... ALONE WITH A FEW FRIENDS AT AN ENCLOSED AREA TIL WE GO CRAZY... =) WHY? Because i feel like it.. =)




So yesterday was mummy's birthday. We went to eat long awaited steamboat... It was goood... =) But while i was loving the steamboat.. i was missing Zhou's Kitchen's Pork Belly... =\ Fuck yeah awesome... =) And i was thinking about Bak Kwa at the same time. I think im starting to binge on food recently... And doesnt seem like a very good idea for a girl my size. Im thinking MAYBE i would do some exercise. But, im guessing i wont get my fat ass down to doing it. 


Parents are going off to Genting this weekend. Leaving me all alone till tuesday night. And from Monday til Thursaday next week i have to take public transport to and fro from work.. =( Making me feel all, "i-really-wanna-quit" on this place... Plus this place doesnt seem like a very good environment for me to start learning and exceling. Too much politics and the manager's kinda weird. The whole system seems so MeSsY. Well its a local firm, and managed by an old timer whom i assume has no idea about moving ahead with the times.


SO... Any good job recommendations people? Preferably in industry sales. I dont mind starting small. Just want to learn... And at least a place where i can have friends.... =( I hate eating breakfast and lunch alone... =( And i'd prolly have to throw in eating dinner alone soon too cos i have no fucking life... =( HAHA.... No cos my parents are away and my brother's in brunei... =) SO HERE... Less words.. MORE PICTURES... AND JOKES PPLE!! JOKES!!! =) I want to learn good knock knock jokes... =) YA... KNOCK KNOCK! WHo's THERE? A MAN.. A MAN WHO? A... MANDY'S GOTTA GO!!!  =) HAHA.. Fuck lame.. 



HAHA.. To those who are using okimono or wtv brand that is that advertises in MRT trains... LOL...
You're pretty much.... fucked... =D


I wanna do this to my chef!! LOL




YEAH BALLS.. WTF starts tmr.. =(






WRAPS UP WHAT I HAVE TO SAY TODAY... FUCK I FINSIH MY POST BY 10AM. HOW THE FUCK SHOULD I SPEND THE REST OF THE DAY?? =\

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I shall drag this post longer than it should be... =)














DAVID CHOI IS AGOOD SINGER.. HAS GOOD SONGS... =) I LIKE HIM... LYRICS ARE GOOD TOO.. TALENT OR WHAT?!?! =)






AND THIS SONG..^^ Is what happens when i see Allen... When i bumped into him on the streets and turn away and pretend my heart didnt just miss a beat.. When i walk pass his block and act as if i dun wanna go up and just see how he is... Yah. I think why im afraid go up to him and talk to him face to face(even though thats what i really really want), is cos im afraid i have to say goodbye in the end. and im afraid the conversation wun even last more than two sentences... Cos itll just break me down even more.. HAHA. =\






LOVE AINT NO WALK IN THE PARK.. And you're not in this shit alone. So dont be all noble. Dont act hero. Everyone dies in love and war. So dont be hero.  Quiting's Out of the Question..
Monday, May 24, 2010

TODAY'S TOPIC is...... KIDS... CUTE, ADORABLE, LOVING, ANGELIC, TOTALLY TO DIE FOR KIDS and FUNNY COMMERCIALS.. =)

And a letter to GINA.. Who ever that person is... =)

















HOLY SHIT PRICELESS!!! =) EPIC!!!

WIN!!! =)
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LETTER TO GINA....
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Hi Gina, i really don't know if you're real or just a made-up character. But whatever it is.. Here's to you. And you better listen good cos its not easy for me to try and be noble here...

So he said he's falling for you. Told me he's happy with you. And you're his happy now. So i really do wanna figth and do stuff and try to change his mind 360degrees but apparently that is bothering him. So if you're real and you like him too, you'll prolly be affected by my nonsense too. So i guess ill stop msging and talking to him because that seems to be what he wants.... He wants nobility out of me to hear about you and wish you guys all the best. I cant... I cant wish you all the best but i guess i can just... Not bother you guys...

But you can be his happy now.. But ill be his happy in the future.. I dunno when the future will happen but it WILL fucking happen... But for now you can be his happy. You can pretend like you'll be there with him forever but you wont... Cos girls are sun of a bitches until you meet that one person thats worth it... And i dont think anyone else sees him the way i do... So you can act and believe that you've got him already but in actual fact you dont... =) But whatever floats your boat... Whatever makes you sleep better at night cos i know what i know and im pretty damn sure he knows it too. But you're too fucking blind to see that he knows.... =) Cos you dont know him like i do...

Ok. So Im suppose to be noble here.. =) So i wish you treat him well. Much better than i used to treat him. I wish you can understand the shit i didnt understand in the past... Wish you can be a happier happy than i was when i was still his happy. And if ever you surpass my position in his heart(if any), i hope you rmb that where ever the fuck you passed... You stepped on my heart while doing so... So yeah.. While you're in a place where i was, 2.5 years ago... I made a mistake... I loved him too early... So if you wanna go ahead and jumped into this pool of mess that i created... ? You can be per-ree-tee sure that you'll end up in the same mess im in few year down the road.. =)

So yes... With all vindication applied... ALL THE FUCKING BEST... =)

And ill show him... a show thats worth all this shit.. When he's ready to see me perform.. =) Maybe he cant be here for my rehearsals now... Cos you're taking too much of his fucking time. But yea... =) He'll see the show... =) And he'll rmb the shits we've gone through and forget that you were ever once his happiness... =) So fuck here you got it... YOUR NOBILITY... =)

Why dont you take it, shine it.. And shove it UP your tender lil ass.. =D



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AND A JOKE TO END OFF THE POST.... =) SEXIST JOKE...

As an airplane is about to crash, a female passenger jumps up frantically and announces, "If I'm going to die, I want to die feeling like a woman."







She removes all her clothing and asks, "Is there someone on this plane who is man enough to make me feel like a woman?"






A man stands up, removes his shirt and says, "Here, iron this!".



很好! 一百分! =D

 
Friday, May 21, 2010

TITLE of TODAY'S POST : Random YOUTUBE & Dedication to the man i think i love and cant live without... =)




OH BABEH..... =) ELVIS PRESLEY IS THE FUCKING SEX ... Fuck yeah.. My dream threesome will be with the young and hott Elvis.. And .... MARILYN MONROE!! Lol.. You have no idea how hott these two people are in my eyes... FUCKING ORGANISM....






The next youtube songs is for snetimental reasons.... I dont know if Allen reads my blog. Im guessing not.. But im hoping, yes. But since he thinks im a bother. The only way for me to express my love to him without bothering him. Is thru my blog... SO yeah. Maybe im stupid.. Maybe im a dumbfuck for doing all this and making my blog boringly filled with a fucked up love for him. And its stupid videos that i put up.. WHY? Cos i put up song videos with no video just lyrics.. WHY? Cos i know Allen dont really know english song lyrics. And he hates to listen to the song carefully to decipher the lyrics. And when i dedicate songs that i feel i want him to know... I know itll be fuck much easier for him to understand... I know.. Im fucking dumb. But i feel i know him. And i wanna be the only one that knows him inside out... And fuck. =) Im a sentimental person.. And this is MY space.. And ill let the lyrics speak for themselves.. I really want to fix things. But im not always a fixer.. Sometimes, like now, im fucking broken too.. And broken cant fix broken.. I wish somehow.. itll fix itself.. sigh.. Not too happy today.. FUck happiness doesnt last.. =(     =)    =\













I think only an emo fuck with a good intelligence will truly understand how i feel when i listen to the song below.. =\


Thursday, May 20, 2010

SENTIMENTAL PICTURES FIRST.. And then the hilarious ones... LOL.. Trust me you'd wanna see the funny ones. Lolll....

SO yeah... Im still stuck...



And it sucks...
That this is what i feel almost all the time,...
I must have fucked up somewhere to deserve this...
BUT!!!


OH WELL... today i feel like IM ON FIRE!!
Im a happy bitch today..
Not as happy as i would be if Allen talked to me.
But im happy.. =)

So ..........






If you tell me that im crazy... =)




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FUNNY SHITS
A: I think my mum passed me her flu
B: Tell her you dowan... Pass her back...

I dont know why i find this hilarious... =)



HAHA!! FUCK YEAH...
I NEED A FUCKING ORGANISM....
And a BIG and LOOONG one too.. =)


If i get a next F at something that i have to show my parents?
I FUCKING DO THIS!! LOL...
AWESOME....

ENJOY YO.. I'll go look for more jokes now...
PILOT MY ASS BITCH....You CAN'T get into my pants.. =)



Wednesday, May 19, 2010


Its good.. =) Its an awesome song.. I like it... =)


TRUE.. Very true... Fuck women... =\
And thats why Harris says things like...
I cant believe im finding so many things that are so everyday with harris...
He thinks i created all this shit.. HAHA.. BULL...


LOL... Harris is a beast.. =)
LION KING!!
And NO! I did not create this....



And thus ends qns asked by friends who ask me how many ways to finger a girl...



I just find this funny.. LOL.. I dont understand 10 though..
LOL.. Ai Dong Ne O ....

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This tumblr browsing shit have made me a happier person recently.. And Im filled with more love, less hate and less resentment.. But still somehow, i feel something missing...

My work is starting to suck quite a bit and i dont know if i am to quit.. What kind of job will i find next? I hate quitting from jobs... =(